Very Very Confused

[the_ladies_man_]

I had an awesome day today. Brenden brought in his bag pipes and he was playing them all over the place. And after school today, I was in the mood to go muddin', so I took a fat kid with me. It was pretty fun, I showed hm how to DRIVE a truck. Took him to my place up the road, cause he took me to his place yesterday. Fun stuff. So I talked to Gillian last night. I got so much off my chest. But still have so much more. And it is so hard for me to talk about stuff like that. These next couple of weeks are gonna be hard. Gillian is gone until next sat. Ed is gonna keep the cars up in the Reading area because we don't have enough crew help down here, and Gene has 3 guys willing to work at the shop once a week and be at the track every race. So now I'm not gonna have that safe haven around the corner to just go and work on the cars. Now I'm gonna have to drive for 45 mins to work on them. And Tad is in Dublin which is 1 1/2 hrs away. I'm so confused. I feel like I'm wasting my life with this stuff. I love racing but what are the chances that I'm gonna be in NEXTEL Cup? I wanna race so much, and I love working on cars so much. Not only am I wasting my life, but I also feel like I'm wasting my Dad's life. But I won't get into that right now, I told Gill all about it last night and she helped a little, but I had to go. I'm in all of the average classes, and when I'm doing good in them, and I want to move up next year, but my teachers are being gay. Well I need to get some sleep.
Until next time.....
Jorge