let's lazy it up
Today was a very robotic day I guess you could say. Lately school just seems like the same old routine with nothing exciting going on. I don't even feel like I'm learning anything anymore. Even Art History is getting monotonous. Film is the only class I look forward to now. The Godfather is seriously one of my new favorite movies, plus looking at a young Al Pacino isn't so bad either. Gawd that man was beautiful....gotta love those Italian boys.
Speaking of Film class, we had the most awkward substitute today. His name was Mr. V, he was an older man and obvioulsy Greek (he insisted on making cultural jokes during the movie and I wanted to kick him so he would fall down and break a hip or something). He made a comment to Michelle that I think might have scarred her for life "Oh well my day just got a little better now that I saw you". Creepy much? Just a tad.
Went to the pep rally today and actually enjoyed myself. I think the shcool spirit bugg finally hit me, its a little late but I don't mind. It was nice to be excited about screaming "SENIORS SENIORS" and the Senior couples dance was so cute. I loved it.
Stephanie and I put some little (well actually she was taller than me, but who isn't?) underclassman girl in her place on the bus today. We sit in the same seat everyday and she just happened to get on the bus before us and take it,so we said a few words and had our seat back. I felt kind of proud and then kind of like my mother. I find myself doing things that remind me of her alot lately and it's really quite frightening.
When I got home I had every intention of hanging out with Radchel and Steph and B to the Rian but was later to find out that I couldn't because my little sister would have to be left alone for an hour. When I was 12 years old my parents had no problem leaving me alone but its absolutely unacceptable for my sister. I hate double standards, my parents still think I'm a little kid and therefore treat me as such. Its going to be quite a shock when I'm away at college. I feel like I can't enjoy my teenage years because my parents are still acting like I can't do anything for myself, take care of my own things, be responsible. I try to show them but it doesn't quite work, they just take it as "their little girl being a big help around the house". Oh well.
Things with Michael Paul are just so confusing right now also which doesn't help anything. We talk to each other for HOURS everyday and whenever we see each other at church we are always together. I know I'm too afraid to tell him that I like him (due to past experiences) and I really don't think he would tell me if he did either. At least Cody said he would be too scared to say anything. He's just a little homeschooled boy who hasn't been introduced to the world of relationships....so adorable. Even though I don't want to date at all right now, it would just be nice to know that I had someone who thought I was amazing.
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me and never let me go......darn you Radchell for introducing me to this song that brings out all the horribly girly things in me. Geez, I just have so much going through my head right now I feel like I could write forever. Unfortunately forever will have to be put on hold because I am out to Taco Bell!! Crunchwrap...its good to go. Wow, I'm sad.