restless
It's been a while. I just haven't had the urge to get on the computer. I just don't feel like it anymore. I don't know what's wrong with me.
The honeymoon period at my job is over. I've now found little twists and turns that irritate the shit out of me. I hate it that I'm bored to death, I hate it that I'm surrounded in an entire environment of the male persuasion, I hate it that my mind isn't entirely business oriented, and last but not least, I hate it that my co-workers can't be like family to me. This is the first time that I've worked a job where I just don't feel at home with everyone. OH....and Brian Pecheles is an intimidating person.
I fucked up at the job the other day- by saying something I shouldn't have. And I think that these guys at work think I'm dumb or something. I mean, I'm not dumb- I'm smart- but it's almost like my entire brain and everything atrophes when i go to work- so when i'm asked a question I'm like, "Huh?"- I space out a lot.
I'm gaining back weight. I hate this shit.
Oh- and another thing. I have to go back to New Jersey because of this dumb shit. I'm over it. I'm over this entire court case- I'm tired of April and Augie and their bullshit. As soon as those kids are in his custody- it will be OVER!!!! Thank God- I just want to get through this. I'm tried of this crap all the fucking time. I'm tired of wondering if those kids are safe, I'm tired of it all.
We've been renting movies like crazy lately. WE got this movie deal at Blockbuster so I've watched a good 10 movies in the past week and a half.
-Along Came Polly
-Something's Gotta Give
-Wonder Boys
-Me, Myself & Irene
-Robin Williams (Broadway)
-A Little Princess
-The Other Sister
-Bruce Almighty
-Under the Tuscan Sun
and there's another one but I can't remember what it was. OH well.
This week I'm gonna rent the horror flix. I have to rent of VHS though- the dvd player is fucking up- i'm over THAT too.
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
-H
The honeymoon period at my job is over. I've now found little twists and turns that irritate the shit out of me. I hate it that I'm bored to death, I hate it that I'm surrounded in an entire environment of the male persuasion, I hate it that my mind isn't entirely business oriented, and last but not least, I hate it that my co-workers can't be like family to me. This is the first time that I've worked a job where I just don't feel at home with everyone. OH....and Brian Pecheles is an intimidating person.
I fucked up at the job the other day- by saying something I shouldn't have. And I think that these guys at work think I'm dumb or something. I mean, I'm not dumb- I'm smart- but it's almost like my entire brain and everything atrophes when i go to work- so when i'm asked a question I'm like, "Huh?"- I space out a lot.
I'm gaining back weight. I hate this shit.
Oh- and another thing. I have to go back to New Jersey because of this dumb shit. I'm over it. I'm over this entire court case- I'm tired of April and Augie and their bullshit. As soon as those kids are in his custody- it will be OVER!!!! Thank God- I just want to get through this. I'm tried of this crap all the fucking time. I'm tired of wondering if those kids are safe, I'm tired of it all.
We've been renting movies like crazy lately. WE got this movie deal at Blockbuster so I've watched a good 10 movies in the past week and a half.
-Along Came Polly
-Something's Gotta Give
-Wonder Boys
-Me, Myself & Irene
-Robin Williams (Broadway)
-A Little Princess
-The Other Sister
-Bruce Almighty
-Under the Tuscan Sun
and there's another one but I can't remember what it was. OH well.
This week I'm gonna rent the horror flix. I have to rent of VHS though- the dvd player is fucking up- i'm over THAT too.
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
-H