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girl scouts - they have yummy cookies. heh why am i such a fat ass? i want to loose like 60 pounds so i was thin like i was before i fell since i used to look better than i do now. since now i'm fucking foul and really fat. i should buy some of that ipychach stuff since i hate making myself throw up with my finger but if i just happen to toss my cookies its kosher just happens naturally... its not fair being thin is so much work...its not fair that i have to practically die to realize how much i had and how fast you can loose everything - EXCEPT weight but all your worldly possetions all ur physical abilities can just be taken from you in a fraction of a second. nelieve me i thought i had it made: i was accepted to a good college in the town i was hoping to be in ; got a small scholarship. turned arOUND AND vam!!! so yeah BOOM! A FRACTIONS OF A SECOND PASS AND BEFORE ANYONE COULD TELL A SLAM HEAD FIRST THEN SLIDE ON THE ASPHALT ROAD KILLING NOT ONLY MY BRAIN CELLS BUT MY Chances at a normal happy future. now all i can do is sit here amd think of all the times i fucked up. and wish some archangel would fly out of somewhere and give me my life back give me a head that is round a looks nice and smooth instead of whatever my head looks like. i just want to be a normal kid my age in my head i still thinbk and act like a 16-18 year old. back when it wasdeasy to wallow in my misery and be happy withthat i dont want to change the worldi jusrt wish i had moreof a way to make it a better place where people would listen to the warnings and live happy health, moprally decent lifestyles regard;ess of faith creed, etc. just be safe don't take chances.so all in all i'm happy wiyth thoings the way thjey are im happy i have a life and still can see my familky including my parents sister and cat, turtle and <3 last but not least max my sweet ferret.its great to have trhis second chanxe the time willcome where i can makew a difference where i can take a stang i just wish i could hgave hadmore timewith each of the women that m,ade the biggest impacts on my ;life: sarah mazzio , marlenna piper neddenien and my supetr special and supa flyblonde bombshell lyndsay williams. all of whom