I could do that!
an update...in like 3 months...my account could almost be legally dead but wait...i save it...i am talented like that...or maybe just bored...I decided not to move...though that was a long time ago....also i have become seventeen...like two months ago...I live at 19 and schooner(w/e)..for like a month...uhmm...current events...current events...uh today in school...i uh fell asleep watching a movie in english....exciting!! oh yea!....god i suck....well maybe not god's fault...or maybe.....wait no... i enjoy the dots......no? a pause is always good once in a while,no? now i have adopted a french accent with improper dialect...bonjour? maybe not...uh... life here in my present place of residence is kinda strange..strange as in not what i am used to, but if i complain about it i am being ungrateful. kind of like a double-edged sword...privacy has decreased...these people have a weird trust system being that they think their perfect children are potential drug users...and me...the outsider is too smart for that kinda of thing......(dots very nessacary,no?)life or something like it has been moving right along as the weeks fly by.it seems yesterday that it was early april and my parents still lived here....but they abandoned me leaving me with little or no choice about where i am....i mean move to a strange state or graduate at the high school you have gone to for 2 years with a third...and final year to go...so i have ad to subject my self to strange living conditions and enough pleases and thank yous to choke a horse...maybe i could start drinking at least one day every week..I could do that...Maybe i could contiplate my own existence and wonder if my life is really in my hands...I could do that./..maybe i could be silent when things attempt to fuck me over...i could do that...maybe i could attend a xcatholic church conformation and silently mock everything that they state and recieve dirty looks from the patrons across and next to me....I could do that...oh wait i have done all that...i continue to do all of that...i'll probably do all that again...(maybe not the church..I don't think the bishop wants me there anymore) the point is...if there is even a point, that my life is shitty...then again everyone's life is shitty...i honestly belief that someone somewhere wishes that they could trade their problems for mine...i take very little comfort in knowing that because if the same person had all the problems that i have and nothing else they would complain just a s much as me...people are bound to hate what there life has in store from them, no one likes there life it's just bearable..i mean yes there are those that enjoy thier life...but i mean that doesn't mean they like it. I wonder if anyone will ever read this entry and completely disagree with what i'm saying...i hope so...but i agree...but i hope for mankinds sake, that i am a minority or else we have alot more problems than i could even imagine...and i can imagine some pretty horrible stuff...i believe the point that i am tring to make...believe it or not is that i hate moy own life...i would end it except for that nagging urge to see whats behind the next door...you may have heard that curiosity killed the cat...but in my case...it may have verey well saved it....
~~I Dissapear~~
~~I Dissapear~~