For you my love, I will kill.....him
I think what I really need right now are friends. Yes, I have friends but I don't have ones that invite me to do stuff with them. I don't have friends that i can just call and they'll come over or I can over to their house. I wish that I had like I used to. Sometimes I wish that I were still best friends with Mat. I remember when all of us guys would just get together and hang out. I remember the old group and all of the fun that we used to have. Me, Mat, Kevin Alex, Fred, Tony, Big Matt. I screwed all of this up with the whole Cristina thing. I have no more friends.I am so sick of screwing every single friendship up. I am so sick of choosing girlfriends over my best friends. I am so sick of everything at this point in my life. Yes, I sound fucking pathetic but it's true. If I had friends like I used to I wouldn't be home right now, crying. I would be somewhere else having fun. Not being depressed but instead here I am, crying and being depressed. Well I have to go listen to Coheed And Cambria some more. I love them. Bye