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so, again its the time of year that i realiaze that i really, honestly have no good friends. not to fall back on or to even just hang out with.
and thats depressing. as always. never really gets better. so i mean, all i can do is sleep for 3 hours on friday eh? yesssss.
realiazing that i dont have the friends that i thought i should have by now, is all sort of depressing. my sister asked me yesterday if i was going to go to homecoming now that it got moved back to the 8th. i said i doubt it. and she couldnt understand why i wouldnt have fun or why i wouldnt want to go because its my senior year and all.
she asked, what about the lacrosse girls? because. they've never asked me to hang out with them and that fact will never change. i asked them about homecoming (sadly) and of course they have their own little group. and its not even that i like the whole group, i only like 3 or 4 of the girls. but whatever.
honestly, i know it wont be fun. i dont have the incredible best friend that ive always had since the beginning of my highschool career. i dont have the friends i wish i had. i dont have the friends i hang out with a lot. at least every other weekend. i dont have that. i have life (not necessarily A life). and a boyfriend. and guys that seem to like to chase after me and not find out wether or not i have a boyfriend first. oh, and of course, as always, the guy friends that live out of state that always say "if we lived closer, we'd totally hang out all the time".
i guess i've always been this way. i never really have permanent friends that stick around for long. i dont have that amazing girl best friend that i can tell every little thing to. i dont even have a best friend. how depressing is that? my best friends always end up being my boyfriend, but when that happens, who do i do my girl talk with? who do i talk to about all the little things that annoy me about him? or about how he did this and how it sucked?
i only have guys to talk to about that stuff. they dont even live within an hour of cypress.
i guess im just extremely down on myself today. but i know all this stuff'll bother me for awhile.
and thats depressing. as always. never really gets better. so i mean, all i can do is sleep for 3 hours on friday eh? yesssss.
realiazing that i dont have the friends that i thought i should have by now, is all sort of depressing. my sister asked me yesterday if i was going to go to homecoming now that it got moved back to the 8th. i said i doubt it. and she couldnt understand why i wouldnt have fun or why i wouldnt want to go because its my senior year and all.
she asked, what about the lacrosse girls? because. they've never asked me to hang out with them and that fact will never change. i asked them about homecoming (sadly) and of course they have their own little group. and its not even that i like the whole group, i only like 3 or 4 of the girls. but whatever.
honestly, i know it wont be fun. i dont have the incredible best friend that ive always had since the beginning of my highschool career. i dont have the friends i wish i had. i dont have the friends i hang out with a lot. at least every other weekend. i dont have that. i have life (not necessarily A life). and a boyfriend. and guys that seem to like to chase after me and not find out wether or not i have a boyfriend first. oh, and of course, as always, the guy friends that live out of state that always say "if we lived closer, we'd totally hang out all the time".
i guess i've always been this way. i never really have permanent friends that stick around for long. i dont have that amazing girl best friend that i can tell every little thing to. i dont even have a best friend. how depressing is that? my best friends always end up being my boyfriend, but when that happens, who do i do my girl talk with? who do i talk to about all the little things that annoy me about him? or about how he did this and how it sucked?
i only have guys to talk to about that stuff. they dont even live within an hour of cypress.
i guess im just extremely down on myself today. but i know all this stuff'll bother me for awhile.