le sigh
it's the holiday season again.
i've spent ridiculous amounts of money on people.
amounts of money i'd never in my life spend on anyone else but my friends and family.
things feel like they're going well,but then i think about things real hard.
harder than i should?no.
i just don't get people sometimes.
i'm sugar coating it for myself when things are good because i don't want to make myself upset.
it IS technically good.
but wouldn't you think someone who claims he likes me,and has been talking to me for 4 months,want to make a commitment to me?
there is no reason NOT to.the only reasons not to make a commitment besides the bullshit excuse "im scared of commitment" is to wait around for somethingb etter to come along.
fuck,we dont have a label,we're technically not an item at all, so if something happens in his favor somewhere else, he can drop me and say that its not a problem because we weren't dating.
after the holidays i have to have another talk with him,and question him as to why he's having such a problem with this ACTUALLY dating thing.
i know this might sound childish, but is it really?
it's mean to keep someone hanging aroung saying "i don't know" for very long.
fuck.
i've spent ridiculous amounts of money on people.
amounts of money i'd never in my life spend on anyone else but my friends and family.
things feel like they're going well,but then i think about things real hard.
harder than i should?no.
i just don't get people sometimes.
i'm sugar coating it for myself when things are good because i don't want to make myself upset.
it IS technically good.
but wouldn't you think someone who claims he likes me,and has been talking to me for 4 months,want to make a commitment to me?
there is no reason NOT to.the only reasons not to make a commitment besides the bullshit excuse "im scared of commitment" is to wait around for somethingb etter to come along.
fuck,we dont have a label,we're technically not an item at all, so if something happens in his favor somewhere else, he can drop me and say that its not a problem because we weren't dating.
after the holidays i have to have another talk with him,and question him as to why he's having such a problem with this ACTUALLY dating thing.
i know this might sound childish, but is it really?
it's mean to keep someone hanging aroung saying "i don't know" for very long.
fuck.