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I have the biggest crush on my music teacher. It's like... AH! While doing statistics the George Winston version of Canon played on my shuffle, and at first i was like, what i have two versions of Canon (because Canon also played after Maneater [hilarious shit right there])? I went to go check it and i realized that it was from the CD that Mr. V gave me for my birthday. I checked through my stack of CDs and i found the cover. I still have the post-it note he wrote stuck to it :)
I know it's probably the most idiotic thing to have a crush on a teacher (considering he's married and stuff) but he's really nice! And he's a total dork and i love dorks. And... and i don't know. He's one of those people that's just really nice to you, so you just kind of like them back. I'm a sucker for nice girls, and nice dorky guys too. It's just. I don't know. Cute.
It is unbelievably weird to have a crush on a teacher though. It has it's pros and cons. It's nice that i get to see him everyday, and that he smiles when i answer questions, and doesn't think i'm an idiot who laughs at his jokes just because i like him (but because everyone else is laughing too). But it's not like you can openly flirt with him, or awkwardly (slyly) touch him or anything. Having a crush on a teacher is so taboo. Especially today, with all those teachers doing their students and shit, rumors get started and blah blah blah. And then i have to graduate. That will be a sad, sad day :(. It would be cool to become Mr. V's friend when i'm in college, you know, like an older mentor kind of friend. I wonder if that's just weird. But it's cool to have an older friend, he's only 26.
I don't know, teacher things usually pass, right? He's just really nice (why do i fall for everyone who gives me the slightest bit of attention). I'm always going on about how sexy he is, but really if i think about it, he's just a bit above average. I mean he's tall and skinny and he's got red hair. I just really like him as a person. He's a nice married person. I don't think that if the opportunity ocurred, i couldn't REALLY get involved with him. It'd be too awkward, or like... i dunno it would seem unreal. Maybe like, a fling. Haha, i don't know. He's just... i dunno it's like that friend that you kind of like but only just a half step above platonically and you could never see yourself getting with them. But i adore him, haha.
Anyway. I've been omg!angry at so many people at school. There are so many people i just want to punch in the fucking face. One, those kids who keep harassing me. Two, that fat ugly chick in Erin's U.S. history class. Three, that chick who pushed me out of the Student Center that one time. Four, Adrian, Henry Lin, and Tarun during Statistics. So many people just need to shut the fuck up and die.
But besides that? Busy week. Homecoming week! I'm sad because i can't go to Disneyland. Oh well. Last saturday the band won high brass and high music at the Tesaro tournament. We made a lot of noise for a bunch of asians. Statistics test on friday. This unit is hard. But Janine keeps asking me questions so when i explain them to her i better understand the concepts, so that's cool. Oral Presentation on thursday in spanish. Mr. Giuliano won't let me read Brokeback so i might read Catch-22. I have to sell entertainment books, and i was going to go to Harvard Square (because it's safer) but Elaine is busy all week, and i don't want to go by myself because that's just creepy.
I like busy weeks though. Makes me feel important (but i'm not). The days are slow and fast at the same time, and sometimes i wonder where all the time goes before i realize that my brain is just probably eating it in a space time warp. Worm holes man. Worm holes. I get to see Mr. V in the morning tomorrow :)
I know it's probably the most idiotic thing to have a crush on a teacher (considering he's married and stuff) but he's really nice! And he's a total dork and i love dorks. And... and i don't know. He's one of those people that's just really nice to you, so you just kind of like them back. I'm a sucker for nice girls, and nice dorky guys too. It's just. I don't know. Cute.
It is unbelievably weird to have a crush on a teacher though. It has it's pros and cons. It's nice that i get to see him everyday, and that he smiles when i answer questions, and doesn't think i'm an idiot who laughs at his jokes just because i like him (but because everyone else is laughing too). But it's not like you can openly flirt with him, or awkwardly (slyly) touch him or anything. Having a crush on a teacher is so taboo. Especially today, with all those teachers doing their students and shit, rumors get started and blah blah blah. And then i have to graduate. That will be a sad, sad day :(. It would be cool to become Mr. V's friend when i'm in college, you know, like an older mentor kind of friend. I wonder if that's just weird. But it's cool to have an older friend, he's only 26.
I don't know, teacher things usually pass, right? He's just really nice (why do i fall for everyone who gives me the slightest bit of attention). I'm always going on about how sexy he is, but really if i think about it, he's just a bit above average. I mean he's tall and skinny and he's got red hair. I just really like him as a person. He's a nice married person. I don't think that if the opportunity ocurred, i couldn't REALLY get involved with him. It'd be too awkward, or like... i dunno it would seem unreal. Maybe like, a fling. Haha, i don't know. He's just... i dunno it's like that friend that you kind of like but only just a half step above platonically and you could never see yourself getting with them. But i adore him, haha.
Anyway. I've been omg!angry at so many people at school. There are so many people i just want to punch in the fucking face. One, those kids who keep harassing me. Two, that fat ugly chick in Erin's U.S. history class. Three, that chick who pushed me out of the Student Center that one time. Four, Adrian, Henry Lin, and Tarun during Statistics. So many people just need to shut the fuck up and die.
But besides that? Busy week. Homecoming week! I'm sad because i can't go to Disneyland. Oh well. Last saturday the band won high brass and high music at the Tesaro tournament. We made a lot of noise for a bunch of asians. Statistics test on friday. This unit is hard. But Janine keeps asking me questions so when i explain them to her i better understand the concepts, so that's cool. Oral Presentation on thursday in spanish. Mr. Giuliano won't let me read Brokeback so i might read Catch-22. I have to sell entertainment books, and i was going to go to Harvard Square (because it's safer) but Elaine is busy all week, and i don't want to go by myself because that's just creepy.
I like busy weeks though. Makes me feel important (but i'm not). The days are slow and fast at the same time, and sometimes i wonder where all the time goes before i realize that my brain is just probably eating it in a space time warp. Worm holes man. Worm holes. I get to see Mr. V in the morning tomorrow :)