ok so...today...
i meant to post last night but it was a bit too late to be starting anything major really
so today, i was all snuggled up in bed, the most comfortable i'd been soooo good :) then the accomodation lady came round to do the flat inspection which was a real shit, fortunately she had turned up just as i'd got out of bed so that wasn't too bad
i managed to pass everyhting, having had a quick last minute shift of some stuff as she was looking in all of the others' rooms so it was pretty good
she's going to check on my windowsill and the bathroom wall which has soap suds on it on monday and also the state of the hallway and the kitchen which i hope won't be left down to me because no one else can be bothered
this morning i managed to sleep through my counselling session which was AWEsome, i got a semi-worried email from vince asking if he was wrong about the appointment and i was like sooorry lol
but anyway, we have an appointment next friday at 11
why is there a part of me that thinks i don't need this when i probably do?
it's been bugging me for a while now, like do i really need counselling, i'm not cutting frequently, i'm not on pills, not getting that depressed or even that angry...well the anger thing is a bit weird and debatable because most of the time i'm fine until i see, think about, talk about the triggers so they just need to be avoided...
i guess underneath it does bother me a lot still...and just certain ways that i react to things so maybe i do...i don't really want to go back tho.
i completely forgot to go to the library bar and try and get inme tickets for sophie and claire...she asked me a week ago before she went to NY and now she's back tomorrow so i should maybe try and get them tomorrow
i'd be angry with myself if i can't get them since she asked me blah
i also meant to go to the psych labs and check out whether they have a self esteem inventory that i could use in my dissertation argh, keep forgetting/can't be arsed with things!!!
not my fault i'm tired out...i know i should try and go to bed earlier but still...and i really need to get a start on this dissertation work, i'm gunna try and have a read of a load of papers tonight so that i can make a start on my intro...i'll put a dvd on while i do it then it won't be quite so shit :)
i don't remember if i wrote about my new ink, i'm fairly sure i did the other day since i'm made up with it :)
we got our results for last semester today, and i've actually done so much better than i thought i would, i have 3x 2:2's and 1x 3rd, it's well good, couldn't believe it :)
i also couldnt believe how well jack did in his essays when the bastard put in even less effort than us lot and also when he got a really high mark for the one that he had handed in late and at only half the word count
jammy bastard lol
everyone's really mad kos he got so lucky with it!
i'm back at home now, have been for around half an hour...i should decide what to have for tea so that when i'm hungry i can make it...i'm so tired right now and i can't understand why, it's probably got something to do with routine and not being used to having one...
i really need to go to the gym...i'm going to have to go next week, as long as i get some work done this weekend as well...argh, so much to do but the distractions outweigh the important things that i have to do because there's more and it's more fun haha
ah well, i'll just have to grit ma teeth and do it because if it comes to it then i might be able to get a 2:1 if they use the second rule to work out my degree...will have to put a lot of effort in this semester...
argh!!! might try have an early night... :P
so today, i was all snuggled up in bed, the most comfortable i'd been soooo good :) then the accomodation lady came round to do the flat inspection which was a real shit, fortunately she had turned up just as i'd got out of bed so that wasn't too bad
i managed to pass everyhting, having had a quick last minute shift of some stuff as she was looking in all of the others' rooms so it was pretty good
she's going to check on my windowsill and the bathroom wall which has soap suds on it on monday and also the state of the hallway and the kitchen which i hope won't be left down to me because no one else can be bothered
this morning i managed to sleep through my counselling session which was AWEsome, i got a semi-worried email from vince asking if he was wrong about the appointment and i was like sooorry lol
but anyway, we have an appointment next friday at 11
why is there a part of me that thinks i don't need this when i probably do?
it's been bugging me for a while now, like do i really need counselling, i'm not cutting frequently, i'm not on pills, not getting that depressed or even that angry...well the anger thing is a bit weird and debatable because most of the time i'm fine until i see, think about, talk about the triggers so they just need to be avoided...
i guess underneath it does bother me a lot still...and just certain ways that i react to things so maybe i do...i don't really want to go back tho.
i completely forgot to go to the library bar and try and get inme tickets for sophie and claire...she asked me a week ago before she went to NY and now she's back tomorrow so i should maybe try and get them tomorrow
i'd be angry with myself if i can't get them since she asked me blah
i also meant to go to the psych labs and check out whether they have a self esteem inventory that i could use in my dissertation argh, keep forgetting/can't be arsed with things!!!
not my fault i'm tired out...i know i should try and go to bed earlier but still...and i really need to get a start on this dissertation work, i'm gunna try and have a read of a load of papers tonight so that i can make a start on my intro...i'll put a dvd on while i do it then it won't be quite so shit :)
i don't remember if i wrote about my new ink, i'm fairly sure i did the other day since i'm made up with it :)
we got our results for last semester today, and i've actually done so much better than i thought i would, i have 3x 2:2's and 1x 3rd, it's well good, couldn't believe it :)
i also couldnt believe how well jack did in his essays when the bastard put in even less effort than us lot and also when he got a really high mark for the one that he had handed in late and at only half the word count
jammy bastard lol
everyone's really mad kos he got so lucky with it!
i'm back at home now, have been for around half an hour...i should decide what to have for tea so that when i'm hungry i can make it...i'm so tired right now and i can't understand why, it's probably got something to do with routine and not being used to having one...
i really need to go to the gym...i'm going to have to go next week, as long as i get some work done this weekend as well...argh, so much to do but the distractions outweigh the important things that i have to do because there's more and it's more fun haha
ah well, i'll just have to grit ma teeth and do it because if it comes to it then i might be able to get a 2:1 if they use the second rule to work out my degree...will have to put a lot of effort in this semester...
argh!!! might try have an early night... :P