Can't believe it's been so long
It's been over 2 years since I wrote in here.
A shit load of stuff has happened since then.
I lost Mum and Gran to cancer
I got a job in a bank and have stuck with it, now I've been there for more than a year
I'm still single
I have a massive crush on a girl from work who I'm kind of "seeing"...don't know where it's going to go yet...I think it's mutual...
I've had 3 different bands, Holding Tides, Burning Memories and Home Of The Heartless, I currently have no band
I own the house now
Lauren's been to Russia and stuff
I went on a trip to Iceland and saw the Northern Lights
I've been to Germany
It's mother's day and I still miss her like mad
I still can't get hold of Dad on the phone which happens quite a bit anyway
What else have I done? Everything seems to have merged into one big blur, there's no definite lines or anything.
I still get dark phases, like really wanting to cut and sometimes thinking that I should go to the Doctors and get something for it or get them to get me a counsellor or something along those lines, I'm not always sure if I can do it all on my own even though I know I'm fine really.
Work really stresses me out lately because I've been made Cash Supervisor and I'm like 2nd in Command on the counter at work and just get given a pile of shite like daily and I just seem to take hits. I reckon if I looked through my old written journals I'd be able to fill in the blanks of what has actially been going on in the last couple of years or so. It's not all been bad that's the thing but like I say it has all ended up just moulding into one big thing.
I feel down today, spent the day yesterday with Jordan and she stayed over night and I really didn't want to take her home today, but we're talking on whatsapp anyway.
I don't want to get in to feelings so I'm going to stop now, it's too much to think about how I'm feeling at the moment so I'll just leave it there. Never know, I may go paperless again!
A shit load of stuff has happened since then.
I lost Mum and Gran to cancer
I got a job in a bank and have stuck with it, now I've been there for more than a year
I'm still single
I have a massive crush on a girl from work who I'm kind of "seeing"...don't know where it's going to go yet...I think it's mutual...
I've had 3 different bands, Holding Tides, Burning Memories and Home Of The Heartless, I currently have no band
I own the house now
Lauren's been to Russia and stuff
I went on a trip to Iceland and saw the Northern Lights
I've been to Germany
It's mother's day and I still miss her like mad
I still can't get hold of Dad on the phone which happens quite a bit anyway
What else have I done? Everything seems to have merged into one big blur, there's no definite lines or anything.
I still get dark phases, like really wanting to cut and sometimes thinking that I should go to the Doctors and get something for it or get them to get me a counsellor or something along those lines, I'm not always sure if I can do it all on my own even though I know I'm fine really.
Work really stresses me out lately because I've been made Cash Supervisor and I'm like 2nd in Command on the counter at work and just get given a pile of shite like daily and I just seem to take hits. I reckon if I looked through my old written journals I'd be able to fill in the blanks of what has actially been going on in the last couple of years or so. It's not all been bad that's the thing but like I say it has all ended up just moulding into one big thing.
I feel down today, spent the day yesterday with Jordan and she stayed over night and I really didn't want to take her home today, but we're talking on whatsapp anyway.
I don't want to get in to feelings so I'm going to stop now, it's too much to think about how I'm feeling at the moment so I'll just leave it there. Never know, I may go paperless again!