I've reached the abyss

[the_headlights]

Jaysus its been so long... and change is all that seems to be happening. I have always thought i would adapt well in almost any situation...But time is changin' and it is finally rearing its ugly ass head!! Its the same old thing. Im off in my own world .........constantly half of me is in another world. The music still means a lot and the film still seems like an unattainable dream. I really wish it would just be a reality. I wish that i could finally break down the wall. I feel as though people are giving it thier all and i am disappointing. That will change..England will happen. I have become sooo comfortable in the little world i have built around myself....it unfathomable to even consider breaking through its borders..GOd! I just know its something that i have to do!

I really hope all the high school graduates stay in touch. I can't even begin to explain how wonderful you all have made my life....Thank You soo much.