fucking frustration
there's a story of a frustrated kid who doesnt kno wat he did to deserve the pain and frustration he's gone through. no one knows him and no one understands him. Those who do kno and understand him just seem to cause more and more pain and frustration in his life. He gets a girl and his angel gets pissed. I've broken my back in half thousands of times for her and the moment i find something to help me be happy here she throws a fit. life has too many curves and im about to fly off. my frustrations have become so numerous i dont even care to count anymore. my heart is happy for the time being and no one cares really. no knos and no one cares. thats almost the story of my life. i feel like im just a diseased little alien that no one seems to care enough about to cure. im tearing down walls and ripping up memories and the pictures and cells in my brain have been beaten and battered to the break point. i havent updated in a while kuz mi hands have been tied behind my back for the past 3 weeks. life is too stressful. ive been ripped up torn apart and put bacdk together with scotch tape and no one knos how to put me back together therefore ive lost myself in the frustration. scars are everywhere and there is no cure. i hate today. i wish it never happend. anticipation turned to pain with 6 words. "not to be expecting you tonight" i need help. im calling on anyone that gives ashit enough to come to my aid. i need someone to lean on while i get my shoes on right. the move was thought of to me as a fresh start and nothing is fresh except the reality of dependancy. ive always had someone there to cry on the shoulder of and now that no one knos the boy from down the street no one is there and the independance is growing to be such a burden his legs are about to crumple under him and implode. i need someone to take some of the weight off. my heart is sad yet happy but for the first time the scars will heal faster and not slower
Harper-Weston
the offendance to the one person hoo makes me happy is unintended to them but to those who used to care and currently almost if not for sure hate me