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James sent me another random "I don't know about anything right now, don't know what i want, I'm freaking out about life" message. Everytime I try to respond to this shit he gives me the brushoff. Fine! If you're not really going to talk about it then shut the fuck up! Quit fucking with me! So again, I try to call him when I get this weird message. And again, he acts totally normal, but vaguely hinting at something enough to get me worrying. Then he asks if he can call me back because he's in a basement. And again, he doesn't call me back. So I go running around the block a few times. Now I'm back.
This is fucking stupid. This is exactly why I don't want any stupid relationship crap. I'm pretty sure there's a girl in Ohio, and that's why he's being weird. But whatever, can you just shut up and let us enjoy this ONE SINGLE WEEK we're going to have, possibly for the rest of our lives? I don't need any more confusion than I've already got, thankyouverymuch. I need a week's vacation with a special boy, which is what I thought I was giving myself. Please tell me I'm not wasting my unpaid week off. I can only afford it if it's really worth it. If it's going to be a stress reliever and not an added stress.
Maybe I'm being insensitive.....
....... nah.
This is fucking stupid. This is exactly why I don't want any stupid relationship crap. I'm pretty sure there's a girl in Ohio, and that's why he's being weird. But whatever, can you just shut up and let us enjoy this ONE SINGLE WEEK we're going to have, possibly for the rest of our lives? I don't need any more confusion than I've already got, thankyouverymuch. I need a week's vacation with a special boy, which is what I thought I was giving myself. Please tell me I'm not wasting my unpaid week off. I can only afford it if it's really worth it. If it's going to be a stress reliever and not an added stress.
Maybe I'm being insensitive.....
....... nah.