it means shit to me now.
1. it's getting colder. and everyone ever knows i have the worst case of seasonal depression of all time ever. GET READY FOR IT, KIDS. someone take me on vacation to the south, please. anywhere, i don't care, i'll like it, i'll go exploring, it will rule, just please.
2. i've gone batty. i keep having these weird panic attacks in which i can't breathe, get all weird and sweaty, sit around thinking i'm going to die, get stabbing chest pains and stomach pains, etc. good thing i gotz drugz for it. good thing those drugs are also highly addictive. scary. i love how doctors can prescribe you something that's basically like heroin or something. haha.
3. i'm in love. no i'm not really in love, i'm just strange. very strange. but i'm being proactive in a manner that will hopefully result in my life being less shitty soon.
4. the new band of horses is still amazing.
5. i wish i had better reading comprehension skills because i love reading so much but half of what i read just like goes right through me. it's not that i don't understand what i read so much as i just fuzz out or something.
6. we really need to finish making our apartment into the beautiful palace it's destined to be. too bad i'm really lazy as of late.
7. i stopped drinking as much. in fact, i don't really drink much at all. go me. not like that was hard to do or that i was even really trying. i guess i just don't hate myself so much anymore, or something.
8. i bought a cute dress that i probably won't even be able to wear until next summer. bummer! that rhymes. wooha!
9. i want my contact lenses back because i'm really sick of not looking cute in my glasses.
10. my stomach hurts too much to let me eat. here we go again. every fucking time.
2. i've gone batty. i keep having these weird panic attacks in which i can't breathe, get all weird and sweaty, sit around thinking i'm going to die, get stabbing chest pains and stomach pains, etc. good thing i gotz drugz for it. good thing those drugs are also highly addictive. scary. i love how doctors can prescribe you something that's basically like heroin or something. haha.
3. i'm in love. no i'm not really in love, i'm just strange. very strange. but i'm being proactive in a manner that will hopefully result in my life being less shitty soon.
4. the new band of horses is still amazing.
5. i wish i had better reading comprehension skills because i love reading so much but half of what i read just like goes right through me. it's not that i don't understand what i read so much as i just fuzz out or something.
6. we really need to finish making our apartment into the beautiful palace it's destined to be. too bad i'm really lazy as of late.
7. i stopped drinking as much. in fact, i don't really drink much at all. go me. not like that was hard to do or that i was even really trying. i guess i just don't hate myself so much anymore, or something.
8. i bought a cute dress that i probably won't even be able to wear until next summer. bummer! that rhymes. wooha!
9. i want my contact lenses back because i'm really sick of not looking cute in my glasses.
10. my stomach hurts too much to let me eat. here we go again. every fucking time.