im home
well im home and in one piece ...even if my cellphone is not
ive just been hanging out at home all flipping week, fuck parents.
i can handle staying home for a week, but what is hard to handle is not seeing Justin.
im trying to think positivly cause i know i will see him soon, its just hard to only see ur best friend for a couple hours in 2 weeks. ive already gone through loseing a bestfriend this year , which im now happy to say that we have been reunited, and i just know this feeling far too much. i feel helppless to whats going on around me and i just wish i could hug and kiss the one person who makes me feel the most centered and happy. i wish i could hang up the phone with him at night and not get sad about how i wont see him or barly talk to him the next day. i really am trying to distract myself though and think about how this is all going to pay off and how all my tears and frusteration are just silliness.
Nothing good comes free, right?
im so thankfull for everyone who has hungout and kept me company this week, i think i would have already been locked up for either going insane or killing my mother if it wasnt for u guys. I feel like my friends are more of a family to me than my real family, which is sad but not far from the truth.
At least i have Maggie, who makes sure i do some kind of workout even if it is just running a couple blocks. i would be a very sad and lonely girl if it wasnt for that old dog. It makes me so happy to hear her little paws walking down the hall to my room every morning, like she has just been waitting for hours for me to wake up so we can play. what a silly pup.
i start swimming on the 21st, and i know im gonna get my ass kicked so hard. i cant wait, i really cant wait to lose all the weight haha but also to just feel connected. i want the challange and i want to work hard again. i dont want to worry about my times or who's better than whom, i just want to focus on my own progress. i dont think ill lose more time in the fly but i cant wait to get a hundred down. ha im so outta shape i dont even think i can do a 50.
oh well, time will tell everything
ive just been hanging out at home all flipping week, fuck parents.
i can handle staying home for a week, but what is hard to handle is not seeing Justin.
im trying to think positivly cause i know i will see him soon, its just hard to only see ur best friend for a couple hours in 2 weeks. ive already gone through loseing a bestfriend this year , which im now happy to say that we have been reunited, and i just know this feeling far too much. i feel helppless to whats going on around me and i just wish i could hug and kiss the one person who makes me feel the most centered and happy. i wish i could hang up the phone with him at night and not get sad about how i wont see him or barly talk to him the next day. i really am trying to distract myself though and think about how this is all going to pay off and how all my tears and frusteration are just silliness.
Nothing good comes free, right?
im so thankfull for everyone who has hungout and kept me company this week, i think i would have already been locked up for either going insane or killing my mother if it wasnt for u guys. I feel like my friends are more of a family to me than my real family, which is sad but not far from the truth.
At least i have Maggie, who makes sure i do some kind of workout even if it is just running a couple blocks. i would be a very sad and lonely girl if it wasnt for that old dog. It makes me so happy to hear her little paws walking down the hall to my room every morning, like she has just been waitting for hours for me to wake up so we can play. what a silly pup.
i start swimming on the 21st, and i know im gonna get my ass kicked so hard. i cant wait, i really cant wait to lose all the weight haha but also to just feel connected. i want the challange and i want to work hard again. i dont want to worry about my times or who's better than whom, i just want to focus on my own progress. i dont think ill lose more time in the fly but i cant wait to get a hundred down. ha im so outta shape i dont even think i can do a 50.
oh well, time will tell everything