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its the begining of the year and im already buried
im not as happy as much as a seem....i feel like no matter what i do i will always have some chains to hold me down
at the end of the day, thinking about math and chior i just want to cry
i feel like im just scurrying around these halls trying to get to my classes early so i can finish hw that i have in others or start hw so i wont have so much after swim and work
i dont know what to do, that plus other factors i.e. family boys blah blah
i know that once swim ends things will slow down and ill have time for myself and i just need to stick it out....
...i guess i just really need my friends too..i mean i know im grounded...but i feel so seperated from everyone ..but then again im glad im not in all that shit...i just need my someones to talk to/cry to/yell with/ bitch with/escape with.....
i guess im still getting used to not haveing someone there with me every step of the way
sry u took the time out of ur day to read this self pittying entry
im not as happy as much as a seem....i feel like no matter what i do i will always have some chains to hold me down
at the end of the day, thinking about math and chior i just want to cry
i feel like im just scurrying around these halls trying to get to my classes early so i can finish hw that i have in others or start hw so i wont have so much after swim and work
i dont know what to do, that plus other factors i.e. family boys blah blah
i know that once swim ends things will slow down and ill have time for myself and i just need to stick it out....
...i guess i just really need my friends too..i mean i know im grounded...but i feel so seperated from everyone ..but then again im glad im not in all that shit...i just need my someones to talk to/cry to/yell with/ bitch with/escape with.....
i guess im still getting used to not haveing someone there with me every step of the way
sry u took the time out of ur day to read this self pittying entry