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im letting my apathy consume me. nothing matters anymore. im walking around in a daze and i do things for no more reason than i dont know what else to do. i feel hollow inside, as though made of really fine glass. i like to watch things break, dropping them from a shelf, but i hate to be told to clean up the mess; i suppose ill let things stay are for now--it donest really matter anyways. apathy causes the feeling of being lost, but also of knowing where you are and letting everything slip through your fingers. i feel as though i could sit here the rest of my life and nothing would affect me, not even kyos haunting voice breeds emotion, just noise in the background, something else i have going on because i dont know what else to do.
i should go to sleep, but i was thinking in my head and something seemed like it should be beautiful so i came to write it down, now i dont know what i was thinking. a lot of things seem beautiful in my head but they arent so when they come out. now im just rambling. i think ill go back to the nothingness of darkness, at least there i dont have to do anything because i dont know what else to do. there is nothing to do in nothingness, good night.