I'm Sorry
so it has been awile. where does all the time go. for a good time there i thought things where finally getting better my life was starting to come together. i love my friends, my family was getting along reasonably, i love my b/f, school was well school. what i failed to realize is i started ti get this i don't effing care state of mind. school eeh, hw who cares, college still time, room what a pain. all that mattered was time with friends having fun. and even that was nnot going as well as i thought. in a short amount of time 9compared to a total life span) i changed without knowledge. i always cared about school, and grades, making sre i was doing what i was supposed too but now i don't do that. i don't think i need to completely go back but i do need to go back to caring. i need to stop ignoring the people i have always cared and loved need to but my mind into active mode. i have been ignoring my friends, have not noticed that well i wasn't one of the girls so much anymore. i was the girl with the boyfriend who stopped carig. i want me back. i can't stand the idea of losing what i learned to cherish so much, what i wored hard to get and keep. I'M SORRY TO ANYONE I MIGHT HAVE PUSHED ASIDE LATELY. i still love all of u and well i hope u can forgive me and give me another chance. i am going to try hard to find where i went and come back. i am going to try and make things better and i hope that maybe just maybe u might be ale to help me along the way just a little. i know i can find my way back but i think i can find it better and faster with a little help from my friends.