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For whatever reason I feel compelled to make an actual update about the past few months of my life. I'll give you all the short version.
Spring semester of school was a total failure, literally. I failed every class. I got into a strange mental funk that I couldn't seem to get myself out of, and as a result I pretty much hibernated. I stayed at home the last 2 months or so of the semester, didn't take any finals, and yeah. As a result I basically have one last semester at OTC to get my shit together or I can no longer recieve financial aid. This should be simple enough, since I only have to raise my GPA by like .15 or some nonsense in order to get off probation.
After going through that, I felt it was time that instead of being a hermit, I needed to take action. I'm now seeing a therapist, and have been diagnosed as bi-polar, as well as depressed (still? again? I don't know). I've been taking medications and they help, but of course no medication or combination of medications is perfect. However I have seen a lot of improvement, and this summer semester is going a lot better.
The whole job/financial situation is still stuck, and I have a feeling it'll be that way for a while. I've been trying to get a job at a veterinary hospital doing anything, even just cleaning up animal poop, I just need the experience. Plus, veterinary schools require at least one letter of recommendation from a veterinarian you've worked with (some require 3, it depends on the school). This is what's most frustrating. I don't care so much about the money as I do about getting the letters. If I can't get into vet school because I don't have one letter, I may just end my life.
As far as the love life goes, I'm dating Josh...again. I won't get into this much, because I feel I don't need to explain myself to anyone. I love him, that's what matters.
Other than that, nothing too exciting has happened to me personally. My friend Jordan had a baby, and she's freaking adorable. I have a feeling she's going to be like a niece or something like that to me. Katie still seems to be going through a rough patch in her life but things do seem to be going better, and I'm trying to be there for her every step of the way. I've also seen some old friends recently, and even though we don't hang out all the time, I still think about them, and hopefully they still think about me.
I have a feeling I'll be frustrated with my position in life for a while, but all in all it really isn't that bad. Mainly what's frustrating is school, I'd like to just..go to vet school, to hell with the associate degree and bachelors degree. I may not be completely happy, but things do seem to be getting better.
Spring semester of school was a total failure, literally. I failed every class. I got into a strange mental funk that I couldn't seem to get myself out of, and as a result I pretty much hibernated. I stayed at home the last 2 months or so of the semester, didn't take any finals, and yeah. As a result I basically have one last semester at OTC to get my shit together or I can no longer recieve financial aid. This should be simple enough, since I only have to raise my GPA by like .15 or some nonsense in order to get off probation.
After going through that, I felt it was time that instead of being a hermit, I needed to take action. I'm now seeing a therapist, and have been diagnosed as bi-polar, as well as depressed (still? again? I don't know). I've been taking medications and they help, but of course no medication or combination of medications is perfect. However I have seen a lot of improvement, and this summer semester is going a lot better.
The whole job/financial situation is still stuck, and I have a feeling it'll be that way for a while. I've been trying to get a job at a veterinary hospital doing anything, even just cleaning up animal poop, I just need the experience. Plus, veterinary schools require at least one letter of recommendation from a veterinarian you've worked with (some require 3, it depends on the school). This is what's most frustrating. I don't care so much about the money as I do about getting the letters. If I can't get into vet school because I don't have one letter, I may just end my life.
As far as the love life goes, I'm dating Josh...again. I won't get into this much, because I feel I don't need to explain myself to anyone. I love him, that's what matters.
Other than that, nothing too exciting has happened to me personally. My friend Jordan had a baby, and she's freaking adorable. I have a feeling she's going to be like a niece or something like that to me. Katie still seems to be going through a rough patch in her life but things do seem to be going better, and I'm trying to be there for her every step of the way. I've also seen some old friends recently, and even though we don't hang out all the time, I still think about them, and hopefully they still think about me.
I have a feeling I'll be frustrated with my position in life for a while, but all in all it really isn't that bad. Mainly what's frustrating is school, I'd like to just..go to vet school, to hell with the associate degree and bachelors degree. I may not be completely happy, but things do seem to be getting better.