Actually feeling a bit better about things. Had a brief talk last night with him, which started with me pretty much saying that I don't care if he's told people that I'm his girlfriend if that's an easier and less personal explanation than the truth, but that I don't think we're there yet and I still have things to figure out that I won't be able to figure out until we're in person... and isn't that what my next visit is for, deciding whether to take the plunge?
We covered several other topics as well, like the importance of shared interests (which I'm still not convinced we have a ton of, but that's an in person thing to figure out), where we'll be settling permanently (he's not opposed to living outside the US, which was a surprise), etc...
I let myself get so worked up over things, so after the talk I was able to kind of take a step back, breathe, and focus on the fact that I do miss him, I do look forward to visiting him, and it will be a decision that both of us make as to whether we'll be taking it further.
Here I go trying to explain why I've gotten so into over-thinking this... But, I guess I know that I'm reaching a stage in life (at the ripe old age of 22) where I'm not just playing around when I get into a relationship with someone. These things, these days, could be forever kind of things. I do want my own version of the white picket fence, family pooch, and pitter-patterings of little feet around the house. It's true that I want those things somewhere indefinite down the road... But, I don't see the loss in trying to find a legitimate life partner before then.
We covered several other topics as well, like the importance of shared interests (which I'm still not convinced we have a ton of, but that's an in person thing to figure out), where we'll be settling permanently (he's not opposed to living outside the US, which was a surprise), etc...
I let myself get so worked up over things, so after the talk I was able to kind of take a step back, breathe, and focus on the fact that I do miss him, I do look forward to visiting him, and it will be a decision that both of us make as to whether we'll be taking it further.
Here I go trying to explain why I've gotten so into over-thinking this... But, I guess I know that I'm reaching a stage in life (at the ripe old age of 22) where I'm not just playing around when I get into a relationship with someone. These things, these days, could be forever kind of things. I do want my own version of the white picket fence, family pooch, and pitter-patterings of little feet around the house. It's true that I want those things somewhere indefinite down the road... But, I don't see the loss in trying to find a legitimate life partner before then.