Private to Remusa_jade_phoenixFebruary 20 2009, 07:05:28 UTC
Right.
My mum loves me unconditionally, and you know how I know, because unlike you she trusts my judgments and decisions. I never once said who you took in was a bad person. Fuck, I don't even know the bloke, I can't make that sort of judgment, but I can disapprove soundly of you just picking up people off the street NOT EVEN A MONTH after YOU were taken!
Maybe it is selfish that I want to keep you safe. That I can't trust strangers in this town, because no one else gives a fuck about what they do to others. That kidnappings and shootings and who knows what else can happen with no consequences. That I'm keeping my son safe by any means possible.
You're not even fully healed yet.
How is it selfish to worry about you? Explain it to me, Moony, because I'm apparently brilliantly thick.
Re: Private to Remusthe_five_signsFebruary 20 2009, 07:10:44 UTC
It's not selfish to worry about me. I'm glad you worry about me. I've told you that.
I'm not glad you've become so distrustful that you'd leave someone who needed help out in the cold.
If no one gives a crap about what they do to others, then you're becoming no better than them if you're not willing to help someone.
I didn't plan to have him live with us forever, I'm getting him an apartment, he moves there this weekend. I have a wand, I can use magic. I'm sure I'll be able to fend him off. The thing with that woman, it.. I can't go around being scared of everyone my whole life.
Re: Private to Remusa_jade_phoenixFebruary 20 2009, 07:20:02 UTC
Circumstances made me this way, Remus. I've come close to losing Teddy before, and I can't let that happen. Ever. Maybe you don't get that. I don't know. But what you did? It was nice of you. Real nice. I would of helped him out to.
But not to the extent you did.
The amount of crap that happens in this town makes me almost want to move away. I can't go home, but I can leave here, and dammit, every time something bad happens, the urge just gets larger.
I like it here.
But not so much any more. We were doing really well here. I was okay with Teddy accidentally Apparating off because I trusted the people here.
I can't anymore.
And I'm not sure I can ever change that.
It's not being scared of people. It's being cautious and smart.
Re: Private to Remusthe_five_signsFebruary 20 2009, 07:29:25 UTC
I'm glad you're being cautious and I'm glad you're being smart. You need to take care of your son, he comes first and he's the most important thing.
I'm going to take care of what needs to be taken care of.
I don't need you to understand. Or approve of it. Or even care. I don't need that from anyone. I..
Merlin. I miss you already.
You do what you need to do and I'll do what I need to do, and we'll meet somewhere in the middle later down the road. Maybe this is good. We won't confuse Teddy. You won't have to explain to Severus why you can find comfort in my arms and not his. You won't have to look at me every other day and wonder what went wrong with me.
Once Sirius is better, I think I'll get an apartment. I'd like you to come visit some time. In the day time.
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My mum loves me unconditionally, and you know how I know, because unlike you she trusts my judgments and decisions. I never once said who you took in was a bad person. Fuck, I don't even know the bloke, I can't make that sort of judgment, but I can disapprove soundly of you just picking up people off the street NOT EVEN A MONTH after YOU were taken!
Maybe it is selfish that I want to keep you safe. That I can't trust strangers in this town, because no one else gives a fuck about what they do to others. That kidnappings and shootings and who knows what else can happen with no consequences. That I'm keeping my son safe by any means possible.
You're not even fully healed yet.
How is it selfish to worry about you? Explain it to me, Moony, because I'm apparently brilliantly thick.
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I'm not glad you've become so distrustful that you'd leave someone who needed help out in the cold.
If no one gives a crap about what they do to others, then you're becoming no better than them if you're not willing to help someone.
I didn't plan to have him live with us forever, I'm getting him an apartment, he moves there this weekend. I have a wand, I can use magic. I'm sure I'll be able to fend him off. The thing with that woman, it.. I can't go around being scared of everyone my whole life.
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But not to the extent you did.
The amount of crap that happens in this town makes me almost want to move away. I can't go home, but I can leave here, and dammit, every time something bad happens, the urge just gets larger.
I like it here.
But not so much any more. We were doing really well here. I was okay with Teddy accidentally Apparating off because I trusted the people here.
I can't anymore.
And I'm not sure I can ever change that.
It's not being scared of people. It's being cautious and smart.
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I'm going to take care of what needs to be taken care of.
I don't need you to understand. Or approve of it. Or even care. I don't need that from anyone. I..
Merlin. I miss you already.
You do what you need to do and I'll do what I need to do, and we'll meet somewhere in the middle later down the road. Maybe this is good. We won't confuse Teddy. You won't have to explain to Severus why you can find comfort in my arms and not his. You won't have to look at me every other day and wonder what went wrong with me.
Once Sirius is better, I think I'll get an apartment. I'd like you to come visit some time. In the day time.
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