learn to lose

[the_female_form]

apparently my mother is never speaking to me again. she's a crazy person but she's also my mother. i'm very upset about this. as if my life wasn't stressful enough. i feel like i did something really terrible. what did i do?

i'm clearing the fucking decks. i'm starting over on my life. whatever i'm doing is not good enough. i'm going to rearrange things. i will be someone who doesn't hate who i am. i can be something better right?

i am very, very upset. in a way that i haven't been for an extremely long time.