As a new life begins...another fades away
5/4/08we had "the talk" last night. she finally broke down and opened up to me at a time when all was good and we weren't arguing. a lot of theories were espoused, a lot of information was revealed. many conclusions were made,
; but, of them all came the ultimate one...she's not in love with me...she's no longer sure i am right for her. our commitment to our kids is the ONLY thing holding us together right now and might very well be the only thing to adhere us for a long time coming. her life has changed so much, so quickly. nothing of the old makes sense anymore. all i can do now is wait...wait for the moment when she grows tired of having me around. i cannot try any harder, i cannot display any MORE love to her than i already have. her mindset has changed...her mentality is that of a stronger willed person. IF i am to remain in her life, SHE has to reach down from within and find that which i found within my own self years ago. otherwise, i am destined to life as a shell of an existence, cohabitating with one who would rather be away from me. no, love is not the true issue here. she does love me. personality is more the problem. i fear we have reached that point where all will change. as a parent has to accept their child leaving the nest, i too must accept that my love, my soul mate has elevated herself to such a degree that graduation has come and gone and now she too must fly away.
the bonds of love and life tie us
our fears and insecurities repel us.
fly free my child of life, fly free
i love you
; but, of them all came the ultimate one...she's not in love with me...she's no longer sure i am right for her. our commitment to our kids is the ONLY thing holding us together right now and might very well be the only thing to adhere us for a long time coming. her life has changed so much, so quickly. nothing of the old makes sense anymore. all i can do now is wait...wait for the moment when she grows tired of having me around. i cannot try any harder, i cannot display any MORE love to her than i already have. her mindset has changed...her mentality is that of a stronger willed person. IF i am to remain in her life, SHE has to reach down from within and find that which i found within my own self years ago. otherwise, i am destined to life as a shell of an existence, cohabitating with one who would rather be away from me. no, love is not the true issue here. she does love me. personality is more the problem. i fear we have reached that point where all will change. as a parent has to accept their child leaving the nest, i too must accept that my love, my soul mate has elevated herself to such a degree that graduation has come and gone and now she too must fly away.
the bonds of love and life tie us
our fears and insecurities repel us.
fly free my child of life, fly free
i love you