pre-osu!fic, to be read while I panic about klainebigbang
"Kurt, this isn't the end of the world, I promise." Blaine said, sitting down on the couch next to his boyfriend and sliding his arm around his waist. "I'm not going to be that far away...I'll be able to come home every weekend, if you want me to," he added, pulling Kurt closer and kissing his cheek gently.
"You say that now, Blaine, when it's easy...What about in the fall, when you're moving in and realizing how awesome OSU is compared to Lima, or how many more open-minded people there are, or how many h--" He stopped suddenly, cutting himself off for a second before continuing on. "Whatever. It doesn't matter. I can't stop you from going, I'm just saying that maybe it'd be easier for both of us if we weren't together when you went."
"That's ridiculous, Kurt, and you know it." Blaine sighed, sliding off the couch to kneel in front of Kurt, tilting his head slightly to try and get a good look at the younger boy's face. "There's something you're not telling me, Kurt...I know you, okay? Doing this whole 'I'm Kurt Hummel and nothing phases me' thing? Kind of pointless where I'm concerned." He sighed, shrugging and sitting back on his heels. "I mean, if you don't want to tell me, that's fine...I just...You know how hard it's been for me. Between figuring out what I want to go to school for, and where would be the best, and where out of those schools was the closest, so that I can still help out with the family? It's been insane, and I just thought..." He trailed off, shrugging and looking down at the floor.
He sighed, running a hand over his face slightly before looking at Kurt again. "I just thought you knew how important having you in my corner has been...How much you've kept me sane the past few months...I kind of thought it was a mutual feeling, I guess..." He said before standing up slowly. "Anyways...That's how I feel. I'm not breaking up with you, so if that's what you really want, you're gonna have to break up with me to make it happen..." He paused, waiting to see if Kurt said anything. When the other boy stayed quiet, Blaine nodded, biting his lip slightly.
"I'm...I think I should go...You need time to think, and I need to go tell my parents...They don't know I got in yet...I wanted to tell you first," he added, frowning slightly at the fact that he had been so happy just an hour ago. "I'll call you later...Or, you can call me, I guess..." He said, mumbling as he bent down, kissing Kurt's cheek gently. "I love y--"
"I don't want you to meet someone better than me," Kurt said, biting his lip and looking at his hands as soon as the words were out. He took a deep breath before continuing softly. "I...It...It won't be the same as having you at McKinley, Blaine...I mean, I know there are no other options for you aside from me right now...When you're at OSU, it'll be a whole different story. Guys are going to be tripping over one another to get to you..." He scoffed lightly, shaking his head. "What're you gonna tell them, Blaine? 'Oh, sorry Mr. Handsome McHotJock, I'd love to date you and your rippling pectoral muscles, but there's this bitchy diva who's kind of obsessed with me, and I promised I'd go see him this weekend...Oh, no, he's not in college. He's still in high school.'? You'd be better off just breaking up with me now and saving us both the heart--headache later on..." He added softly.
Blaine frowned, sitting back down next to Kurt and pulling the countertenor in to his arms tightly. "You're an idiot," he said quietly, kissing Kurt's temple gently. "Luckily for us both, you're my idiot, and I'm used to it by now," he added fondly, rubbing Kurt's back as he spoke. "I'm not going to find anyone better than you, Kurt, and I'm not going to be turning guys down because I'll make sure that they all know that I'm taken from day one. And not only that, I'll make sure that they know my boyfriend is the fiercest, hottest, most fashionable guy in all of Ohio, and that they all wish they could move me the way he does." He smiled softly, squeezing Kurt's hand gently. "Okay?"
"No, Blaine, not okay." Kurt said, sitting up and taking his hand back. "You can say all of the romantic stuff you want to now, because it's easy! It won't be the same in five months when you've got naked frat boys streaking through your dorm room! You're not going to care that I'm home sick when you've got a cute lab partner who wants to "compare notes" after class!"
"Okay, first of all, real life is nothing like "Van Wilder", Kurt, so streaking frat boys aren't an issue. Second of all," he said, shifting so that he was looking Kurt in the eye again, "it's easy for me to say it because it's true. I love you, Kurt, to the point where I was considering not going to college and just taking over the family after graduation so that I could stay here and be with you!" He said, huffing slightly. "I'm looking forward to failing quizzes because I can't stop thinking about coming home to see you for the weekend, or signing in to Skype between classes to talk to you when you're home sick, or have a snow day...Hell, I'm excited about blackmailing you in to coming to OSU's homecoming game with me, just so I can brag to everyone about bringing my boyfriend to his first college football game, okay? This isn't a joke to me...You're not a joke to me...We're going to make this work, because I can't imagine getting through my first year of college without you to cheer me on...I can't really imagine getting through any random day of the week without you, but I'm pretty sure that's because I'm freakishly co-dependent where you're concerned, so..." he trailed off, blushing slightly and rubbing the back of his neck nervously.
"You were going to skip going to college?" Kurt asked softly, looking at Blaine confusedly. "Blaine, getting in to OSU's been something you've wanted since before we met...And you were just going to give that up?...Are you crazy?"
"I was going to give it up for you," Blaine said, as if that made any difference. "Then I realized something."
"What?" Kurt asked, smiling softly and going along as Blaine pulled him closer again, blushing as the older boy lifted his hand and kissed his ring finger.
"I realized that I'm going to marry you one day, and that if I'm going to have any hopes of keeping up with you for the rest of my life, I need all the education I can get."