Life as I know it. <3
holy crap. it's been the longest time since i've updated this thing.. i changed the whole look of it too. i guess myspace has taken over my online blogging, but i miss my LJ!
so uh, whaddya all wanna hear? school? it's going good... i hope. i got college math switched to algebra II, so this is the SECOND time i'll be taking it.. but you know.. i'm getting the hang of it with this ms. woeveck... mr. russell knew jack crap.. and it was just ridiculous the way he taught. i hope i can get the hang of it this time.
child development is a pretty cool class. chorus pisses me off this year. i love my chem teacher. he = awesome. my gym teacher is even better. dodulik rocks my socks off.
friends are pretty decent this year. i got back on track with a,b,&c and its going REALLY good. britts in florida right now, and i miss her immensely. i went to dunkin donuts with allie last week, and we had a really good time, just like the old days. me && cat are probably going to the movies tomorrow with my mom and sister && her friends, but we'll probably see something different.. i see cat in homeroom all the time too so i get my fill of my love.. <3 lol.
don and me are pretty much on speaking terms again, i guess. if you could call it speaking. when we do get the chance to talk, we're not yelling at eachother or freaking out, or being moody towards one another. its going pretty okay for two people who hated eachother only a few short months ago.
the boy situation is quite complicated. i broke up with matt [again] a couple of weeks ago. i just don't think being with him is the right thing to do. its confusing and complicating but eventually me and him will get it right. on the other hand, some old feelings are resurfacing, and i don't know if they're good or bad... they're hard to deal with though, thats for sure. it wasnt that long ago that i broke my own heart, and his.. and i don't know how he'd take it, knowing that i wanted to take a chance again. a chance at hurting both of us.. but also a chance at being happy once more. . . . and then theres a new prospect that is looking okay, he's pretty cool. i'd love to see where this goes, too.
jbrown is gone, and thats kinda hard, you know.. not seeing her every day and not being able to rest my head on her shoulder when the whole world gets to be too much. one time, a long while ago, she slipped me a little note that i still keep to this day. it basically said that sometimes things happen in life but you can't let them get you down. she said "one day, all this stuff with be gone && over, and you'll be happy." i think the the day she was talking about is coming really soon. i'm figuring out who i am, and im also not compromising it, at all. im finding out what i want, and what the people around me want, and how i can have a balance between the two. before, it was either from one extreme or the other. i either couldnt care less about other people, or didnt take time at all for myself, and only worried about the people who needed someone. and now im slowly coming to realize that there can be a healthy medium between those two ends of the spectrum.. and im sorting that balance out. i'm finally deciding what makes me happy, and what makes other people happy ABOUT me are two completely different things. they can be somewhat associated, yes, but they aren't the same thing.
my life is getting back together again, and i'm grateful.
&& i think i'm finally going to be okay.
-me
so uh, whaddya all wanna hear? school? it's going good... i hope. i got college math switched to algebra II, so this is the SECOND time i'll be taking it.. but you know.. i'm getting the hang of it with this ms. woeveck... mr. russell knew jack crap.. and it was just ridiculous the way he taught. i hope i can get the hang of it this time.
child development is a pretty cool class. chorus pisses me off this year. i love my chem teacher. he = awesome. my gym teacher is even better. dodulik rocks my socks off.
friends are pretty decent this year. i got back on track with a,b,&c and its going REALLY good. britts in florida right now, and i miss her immensely. i went to dunkin donuts with allie last week, and we had a really good time, just like the old days. me && cat are probably going to the movies tomorrow with my mom and sister && her friends, but we'll probably see something different.. i see cat in homeroom all the time too so i get my fill of my love.. <3 lol.
don and me are pretty much on speaking terms again, i guess. if you could call it speaking. when we do get the chance to talk, we're not yelling at eachother or freaking out, or being moody towards one another. its going pretty okay for two people who hated eachother only a few short months ago.
the boy situation is quite complicated. i broke up with matt [again] a couple of weeks ago. i just don't think being with him is the right thing to do. its confusing and complicating but eventually me and him will get it right. on the other hand, some old feelings are resurfacing, and i don't know if they're good or bad... they're hard to deal with though, thats for sure. it wasnt that long ago that i broke my own heart, and his.. and i don't know how he'd take it, knowing that i wanted to take a chance again. a chance at hurting both of us.. but also a chance at being happy once more. . . . and then theres a new prospect that is looking okay, he's pretty cool. i'd love to see where this goes, too.
jbrown is gone, and thats kinda hard, you know.. not seeing her every day and not being able to rest my head on her shoulder when the whole world gets to be too much. one time, a long while ago, she slipped me a little note that i still keep to this day. it basically said that sometimes things happen in life but you can't let them get you down. she said "one day, all this stuff with be gone && over, and you'll be happy." i think the the day she was talking about is coming really soon. i'm figuring out who i am, and im also not compromising it, at all. im finding out what i want, and what the people around me want, and how i can have a balance between the two. before, it was either from one extreme or the other. i either couldnt care less about other people, or didnt take time at all for myself, and only worried about the people who needed someone. and now im slowly coming to realize that there can be a healthy medium between those two ends of the spectrum.. and im sorting that balance out. i'm finally deciding what makes me happy, and what makes other people happy ABOUT me are two completely different things. they can be somewhat associated, yes, but they aren't the same thing.
my life is getting back together again, and i'm grateful.
&& i think i'm finally going to be okay.
-me