lets go back to the start...

[the_emokiwi]

wow. a rush of old feelings, and being crushed down with all the crap that comes with it. "This isnt how its supposed to be" But it its how its become. I didn't ask for the things that occurred to occur but they did. All that is left to do is burn those memories out of my mind. I dont want them anymore. One pill, two, five, twenty, how ever many it takes for the drugs to burn you out. i will, i must, your not the person i loved, and never will be again. Cut the ties, mend my wounds, wash you from me. completely. You could have been great, but you chose to be trash. And as i defile myself to get you out, i too drop from the heights of who i once was. But once i get back up, i wont ever fall, ever. I've not told anyone, but im leaving here. To never return, once things are set in order. I'm so much older than all of you, yet you all lack the forbearance to see it. The ways of the old dont make sense in this day in age. Ive tried, so very hard, to live like all of you. It sickens me, but i do it anyway.

I don't want to let go. but i know that i have to.
so i am.

the end.