Riley was really torn up about losing Graham. It's understandable. I've lost my whole family. Well, fifty percent of my whole family. So, yeah, I know how he's feeling times one hundred
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"So that's it, is it then, Buffy? Demons infest an island, and kill my best friend, after one killed my wife, and another bedded you after I thought that you hated him, and I'm just supposed to be passive?"
I turned to look at him. He made a comment about Spike. Riley caught us sleeping together. It wasn't fair to throw that back in my face. "This isn't about me, Riley. Don't throw Spike in my face. It happened. Things happen. You know how sorry I am about Sam and Graham. You think I don't care? I do. I haven't been able to mourn my loses, because there's just too much going on at this moment." I shook my head. "I'm repeating myself. Look, I'm not asking you to be passive. I'm asking you to stay focused. I don't want you getting hurt."
Riley seemed to calm down. I had to go on another rant. He pissed me off.
"We can get out of here, Buffy, There are ways, but if we look to leave, how do we know who we're saving? We might be saving nobody by looking to leave. We don't know how many demons are on this island, and since we're here, I say we kill them all. I'm ready for it. I can't see anything else. You're the slayer, Buffy, but we're both fighters. This is what we do, and we have already failed to save so many on this night."
I wasn't going to argue with him. There were so many reasons why I wanted to leave this place. One was getting back to my family and friends. At least what I had left. I had funerals to arrange. Riley had a few valid points. If we left now, more people could die. I don't see us killing them all. They've been coming out of the woodwork.
"Thanks for the discouraging reminder." I rolled my eyes. "If we're going to kill every demon on this island, we're going to need more muscle. We can fight off as many as we can, until we get the gang back with us. They are more than easy to kill. We just need to pay close attention and make sure we don't kill humans." I walked past Riley and continued walking along the beach. There were people scattered, but not many. I'm assuming most of them were scared off the beach, and forced into hiding.
I'm ready for anything these demons have. I've had it, and I'm reaching my breaking point.
"This isn't about me, Riley. Don't throw Spike in my face. It happened. Things happen. You know how sorry I am about Sam and Graham. You think I don't care? I do. I haven't been able to mourn my loses, because there's just too much going on at this moment."
Buffy giving me a lecture. She was the slayer and had more physical abilities then me, so that made her smarter then me. She was grieving, and I was grieving, and she had power that was super, but she didn't have testosterone, but I wasn't about to throw that argument in her face.
"I'm repeating myself. Look, I'm not asking you to be passive. I'm asking you to stay focused. I don't want you getting hurt."
I managed a smile. "If you don't want me getting hurt, Buffy, then you'd have to go back two months and you would have had to save Sam. You'd have to go back a couple of hours and you'd have to get Graham away from the helicopter. You can't change the past, but what you can do is make sure that others aren't hurt by evil beings, and that's all I got right now, Buffy."
I shook my head, not even wanting to argue, but arguing did make me feel. I didn't want Buffy to be my whipping boy, and then I told her that. "I'm sorry, Buffy. It's just that it's kind of dark in my heart right now. It's gotta be the same for you, but it's still hard to accept."
I wasn't backing away from a demon slaughter, still, but I didn't want to lose her, or anyone else here, or die myself.
"If we're going to kill every demon on this island, we're going to need more muscle. We can fight off as many as we can, until we get the gang back with us. They are more than easy to kill. We just need to pay close attention and make sure we don't kill humans."
Back to business. Back to not thinking. I liked that. "Well, we have more muscle here. Angel is here, and Gunn and Fred are still here. We need to find them, kill demons, and not kill humans. If they show a human face, but act strange, we test them...if we miss them, we won't miss them for long. Most demons aren't the brightest bulbs on the tree."
Riley smiled, but I wasn't prepared for what he was going to say to me next.
"If you don't want me getting hurt, Buffy, then you'd have to go back two months and you would have had to save Sam. You'd have to go back a couple of hours and you'd have to get Graham away from the helicopter. You can't change the past, but what you can do is make sure that others aren't hurt by evil beings, and that's all I got right now, Buffy."
I fought back the tears that were threatening to come out. "Talk about a knockout. If I could, I would. You know that. But, don't make me feel guilty. I had nothing to do with Sam or Graham's deaths." My face felt like it was burning.
"I'm sorry, Buffy. It's just that it's kind of dark in my heart right now. It's gotta be the same for you, but it's still hard to accept."
My eyes reached his. "It's okay. It is the same for me. You think I want to block everything out for the sake of helping innocent people? That's what heroes do. They concentrate on personal stuff later and help the innocent first." This all started out in an argument, and I didn't want it to escalate. "Let's not fight. We have plenty of fighting to do, but let's not fight with each other." I smiled.
"We need to find them, kill demons, and not kill humans. If they show a human face, but act strange, we test them...if we miss them, we won't miss them for long. Most demons aren't the brightest bulbs on the tree."
"I wouldn't know where to start. If we go back to the cave to look for Gunn and Fred, we might miss them. I think we should stay around here. They are bound to come this way. We can definitely handle our own, for now." There weren't many demons around. I found it unusual, but it gave us time to gather strategies.
"Talk about a knockout. If I could, I would. You know that. But, don't make me feel guilty. I had nothing to do with Sam or Graham's deaths."
I put my head down. I didn't mean to make her feel the way that she was feeling and my comments weren't meant to make her feel like she was responsible, but I wasn't exactly in that place where I could apologize, either...or at least not fully apologize.
She seemed to calm down. Which was good, because I knew that I was going to have to grovel to her and I didn't want to do that.
"It's okay. It is the same for me. You think I want to block everything out for the sake of helping innocent people? That's what heroes do. They concentrate on personal stuff later and help the innocent first."
"Let's not fight. We have plenty of fighting to do, but let's not fight with each other."
"I wasn't blaming you for any of the things that happened to me. Or to Sam, or to Graham, just so you know. I was just saying, that it's hard to breathe inside, which I guess that you alredy know..."
I advanced, heading away from the ship, going towards the city area off of the beach. We had been through the woods and there had to be some demons that got off of the boat and were looking for other humans to make demons.
"I wouldn't know where to start. If we go back to the cave to look for Gunn and Fred, we might miss them. I think we should stay around here. They are bound to come this way. We can definitely handle our own, for now."
I stopped. "I don't know if anything is going to come this way. I mean the ship could be a base or something. I mean, I don't see a boat around here and something tells me that this wasn't the first ship that steered it's way into this island, but what are the odds that we'll be approached, or that Gunn and Fred will come this way? Wouldn't it be better to look for them. If we sit here and waste time, and then nothing happens, then where are we?"
"I wasn't blaming you for any of the things that happened to me. Or to Sam, or to Graham, just so you know. I was just saying, that it's hard to breathe inside, which I guess that you alredy know..."
I looked over at him, and moved closer. "I know. I just got a little carried away. It's been so hard holding all of these feelings inside. My defensive mode came into place. I've been blaming myself for everything that has happened." My head looked down to the sand. "Why did this have to happen now? Would it have been so bad to just stay back with Anya and Xander? Nevermind, don't answer that." I sighed, heavily. We had to get off of this island, like now.
We walked away from the ship and we started to walk toward the city. I was reluctant to go that way, but we had to find out what was going on and find a way out of here. That was the only alternative.
"I don't know if anything is going to come this way. I mean the ship could be a base or something. I mean, I don't see a boat around here and something tells me that this wasn't the first ship that steered it's way into this island, but what are the odds that we'll be approached, or that Gunn and Fred will come this way? Wouldn't it be better to look for them. If we sit here and waste time, and then nothing happens, then where are we?"
"You're right. We're wasting time. We need to find Gunn and Fred. If they didn't find Angel and Cordelia, they might need some backup." Something tells me they didn't find Angel. If they did, they would have made their way back here. If anything, me and Riley were prepared for any demons that would come out to play.
Things were slowly taking a toll on our emotions. For a minute there, I thought we were going to fight. Riley almost lost it. I know how he's feeling. I hated to remind him that I was going through the same thing, but he needed to know that he wasn't alone. We had more in common than we thought. I see that, now.
I turned to look at him. He made a comment about Spike. Riley caught us sleeping together. It wasn't fair to throw that back in my face. "This isn't about me, Riley. Don't throw Spike in my face. It happened. Things happen. You know how sorry I am about Sam and Graham. You think I don't care? I do. I haven't been able to mourn my loses, because there's just too much going on at this moment." I shook my head. "I'm repeating myself. Look, I'm not asking you to be passive. I'm asking you to stay focused. I don't want you getting hurt."
Riley seemed to calm down. I had to go on another rant. He pissed me off.
"We can get out of here, Buffy, There are ways, but if we look to leave, how do we know who we're saving? We might be saving nobody by looking to leave. We don't know how many demons are on this island, and since we're here, I say we kill them all. I'm ready for it. I can't see anything else. You're the slayer, Buffy, but we're both fighters. This is what we do, and we have already failed to save so many on this night."
I wasn't going to argue with him. There were so many reasons why I wanted to leave this place. One was getting back to my family and friends. At least what I had left. I had funerals to arrange. Riley had a few valid points. If we left now, more people could die. I don't see us killing them all. They've been coming out of the woodwork.
"Thanks for the discouraging reminder." I rolled my eyes. "If we're going to kill every demon on this island, we're going to need more muscle. We can fight off as many as we can, until we get the gang back with us. They are more than easy to kill. We just need to pay close attention and make sure we don't kill humans." I walked past Riley and continued walking along the beach. There were people scattered, but not many. I'm assuming most of them were scared off the beach, and forced into hiding.
I'm ready for anything these demons have. I've had it, and I'm reaching my breaking point.
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Buffy giving me a lecture. She was the slayer and had more physical abilities then me, so that made her smarter then me. She was grieving, and I was grieving, and she had power that was super, but she didn't have testosterone, but I wasn't about to throw that argument in her face.
"I'm repeating myself. Look, I'm not asking you to be passive. I'm asking you to stay focused. I don't want you getting hurt."
I managed a smile. "If you don't want me getting hurt, Buffy, then you'd have to go back two months and you would have had to save Sam. You'd have to go back a couple of hours and you'd have to get Graham away from the helicopter. You can't change the past, but what you can do is make sure that others aren't hurt by evil beings, and that's all I got right now, Buffy."
I shook my head, not even wanting to argue, but arguing did make me feel. I didn't want Buffy to be my whipping boy, and then I told her that. "I'm sorry, Buffy. It's just that it's kind of dark in my heart right now. It's gotta be the same for you, but it's still hard to accept."
I wasn't backing away from a demon slaughter, still, but I didn't want to lose her, or anyone else here, or die myself.
"If we're going to kill every demon on this island, we're going to need more muscle. We can fight off as many as we can, until we get the gang back with us. They are more than easy to kill. We just need to pay close attention and make sure we don't kill humans."
Back to business. Back to not thinking. I liked that. "Well, we have more muscle here. Angel is here, and Gunn and Fred are still here. We need to find them, kill demons, and not kill humans. If they show a human face, but act strange, we test them...if we miss them, we won't miss them for long. Most demons aren't the brightest bulbs on the tree."
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"If you don't want me getting hurt, Buffy, then you'd have to go back two months and you would have had to save Sam. You'd have to go back a couple of hours and you'd have to get Graham away from the helicopter. You can't change the past, but what you can do is make sure that others aren't hurt by evil beings, and that's all I got right now, Buffy."
I fought back the tears that were threatening to come out. "Talk about a knockout. If I could, I would. You know that. But, don't make me feel guilty. I had nothing to do with Sam or Graham's deaths." My face felt like it was burning.
"I'm sorry, Buffy. It's just that it's kind of dark in my heart right now. It's gotta be the same for you, but it's still hard to accept."
My eyes reached his. "It's okay. It is the same for me. You think I want to block everything out for the sake of helping innocent people? That's what heroes do. They concentrate on personal stuff later and help the innocent first." This all started out in an argument, and I didn't want it to escalate. "Let's not fight. We have plenty of fighting to do, but let's not fight with each other." I smiled.
"We need to find them, kill demons, and not kill humans. If they show a human face, but act strange, we test them...if we miss them, we won't miss them for long. Most demons aren't the brightest bulbs on the tree."
"I wouldn't know where to start. If we go back to the cave to look for Gunn and Fred, we might miss them. I think we should stay around here. They are bound to come this way. We can definitely handle our own, for now." There weren't many demons around. I found it unusual, but it gave us time to gather strategies.
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I put my head down. I didn't mean to make her feel the way that she was feeling and my comments weren't meant to make her feel like she was responsible, but I wasn't exactly in that place where I could apologize, either...or at least not fully apologize.
She seemed to calm down. Which was good, because I knew that I was going to have to grovel to her and I didn't want to do that.
"It's okay. It is the same for me. You think I want to block everything out for the sake of helping innocent people? That's what heroes do. They concentrate on personal stuff later and help the innocent first."
"Let's not fight. We have plenty of fighting to do, but let's not fight with each other."
"I wasn't blaming you for any of the things that happened to me. Or to Sam, or to Graham, just so you know. I was just saying, that it's hard to breathe inside, which I guess that you alredy know..."
I advanced, heading away from the ship, going towards the city area off of the beach. We had been through the woods and there had to be some demons that got off of the boat and were looking for other humans to make demons.
"I wouldn't know where to start. If we go back to the cave to look for Gunn and Fred, we might miss them. I think we should stay around here. They are bound to come this way. We can definitely handle our own, for now."
I stopped. "I don't know if anything is going to come this way. I mean the ship could be a base or something. I mean, I don't see a boat around here and something tells me that this wasn't the first ship that steered it's way into this island, but what are the odds that we'll be approached, or that Gunn and Fred will come this way? Wouldn't it be better to look for them. If we sit here and waste time, and then nothing happens, then where are we?"
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I looked over at him, and moved closer. "I know. I just got a little carried away. It's been so hard holding all of these feelings inside. My defensive mode came into place. I've been blaming myself for everything that has happened." My head looked down to the sand. "Why did this have to happen now? Would it have been so bad to just stay back with Anya and Xander? Nevermind, don't answer that." I sighed, heavily. We had to get off of this island, like now.
We walked away from the ship and we started to walk toward the city. I was reluctant to go that way, but we had to find out what was going on and find a way out of here. That was the only alternative.
"I don't know if anything is going to come this way. I mean the ship could be a base or something. I mean, I don't see a boat around here and something tells me that this wasn't the first ship that steered it's way into this island, but what are the odds that we'll be approached, or that Gunn and Fred will come this way? Wouldn't it be better to look for them. If we sit here and waste time, and then nothing happens, then where are we?"
"You're right. We're wasting time. We need to find Gunn and Fred. If they didn't find Angel and Cordelia, they might need some backup." Something tells me they didn't find Angel. If they did, they would have made their way back here. If anything, me and Riley were prepared for any demons that would come out to play.
Things were slowly taking a toll on our emotions. For a minute there, I thought we were going to fight. Riley almost lost it. I know how he's feeling. I hated to remind him that I was going through the same thing, but he needed to know that he wasn't alone. We had more in common than we thought. I see that, now.
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