The kids don't stand a chance...
Lately I've been in super-ranteriffic mode. So much has happened and is being talked about that I'm about to explode--actually I did tonight a little bit. Between watching my students fail and being unable to do anything about it to hearing about how bad the Obama administration is for education and special education, and finally having to firmly defend a student of mine to a narrow-minded regular education teacher, I have HAD it. My patience level is lowered, my stress level is all the way to the Milky Way, and my hot-headed origins are starting to glimmer through the cracks of my sugar coating.
I felt so bad for my mom tonight, because I think I ranted for a good 45 minutes, ended up in tears, and then listened to her as she told me that this is life. I understand this. I just needed to get it off my chest. I've been taking in and taking in so much this week, and it took a while for all of it to process; I felt it all stewing and knew the boiling point was nearing...then BOOM. It happened tonight. Honestly though, I think this is a part of growing up. I am a naturally anxiety-ridden person who struggles with each emotional challenge when it's first presented, but after I'm repeatedly exposed to it, I become better equipped to cope. This is the first time I'm exposed to all these educational challenges, and I'm sure it will get better with repeated and possibly painful exposures. It's like a new pair of shoes that gives blisters in the same spot over and over until we finaly have them broken in and have a callous where blisters once were. Then just as we get used to that pair of shoes, a new pair comes along and rubs a blister in a different place.
It's an endless cycle of blisters and callouses, and I'm not saying that in a pessimistic way--though after reading, it does come off as such. What I mean is that life is a series of challenges that I'm going to struggle with until I develop better ways to cope with and accommodate difficult situations of similar descent. For example, I've learned to deal quite well with minor personal issues like locking myself out of the house or severely burning food and eventually smoking myself out of the kitchen. I've also grown up with how I deal with family and animal illnesses to where I no longer obsess severely. These educational issues, however, are so novel. Listening to people doesn't seem to do any good, so I think I'm going to have to learn the hard way how things work out. Deep down I comprehend that things are cyclical and that all struggles will work out whether we have the ability to immediately foresee the outcome or have no preconception of what is to come. Because we are humans, we have the amazing power of survival to adapt to most of the situations life (or education administrations) hands us.
Right now I must be adapting. Oh yeah, here's an amazing playlist that genius made me. It's the most perfect one it's ever done on its own!
Daylight: Matt & Kim
Your English is Good - Tokyo Police Club
One Month Off - Bloc Party
The Rake's Song - Decemberists
The Kids Don't Stand a Chance - Vampire Weekend
You Don't Know Me - Ben Folds & Regina Spektor
Lucid Dreams - Franz Ferdinand
Acid Tongue - Jenny Lewis
Why Do You Let Me Stay Here? - She & Him
Consolers of the Loneley - The Raconteurs
Lost Coastlines - Okkervil River
Grapevine Fires - Death Cab for Cutie
Cape Canaveral - Conor Oberst
You Got Yr. Cherry Bomb - Spoon
After Hours - We Are Scientists
Look at Me (When I Rock Whichoo) - The Black Kids
Hurt You - The Sounds
Click, Click, Click, Click - Bishop Allen
Signs - Bloc Party
In a Cave - Tokyo Police Club
Campus - Vampire Weekend
Ulysses - Franz Ferdinand
Polar Opposites - Modest Mouse
Hiroshima - Ben Folds
Wolf Like Me - TV on the Radio
I felt so bad for my mom tonight, because I think I ranted for a good 45 minutes, ended up in tears, and then listened to her as she told me that this is life. I understand this. I just needed to get it off my chest. I've been taking in and taking in so much this week, and it took a while for all of it to process; I felt it all stewing and knew the boiling point was nearing...then BOOM. It happened tonight. Honestly though, I think this is a part of growing up. I am a naturally anxiety-ridden person who struggles with each emotional challenge when it's first presented, but after I'm repeatedly exposed to it, I become better equipped to cope. This is the first time I'm exposed to all these educational challenges, and I'm sure it will get better with repeated and possibly painful exposures. It's like a new pair of shoes that gives blisters in the same spot over and over until we finaly have them broken in and have a callous where blisters once were. Then just as we get used to that pair of shoes, a new pair comes along and rubs a blister in a different place.
It's an endless cycle of blisters and callouses, and I'm not saying that in a pessimistic way--though after reading, it does come off as such. What I mean is that life is a series of challenges that I'm going to struggle with until I develop better ways to cope with and accommodate difficult situations of similar descent. For example, I've learned to deal quite well with minor personal issues like locking myself out of the house or severely burning food and eventually smoking myself out of the kitchen. I've also grown up with how I deal with family and animal illnesses to where I no longer obsess severely. These educational issues, however, are so novel. Listening to people doesn't seem to do any good, so I think I'm going to have to learn the hard way how things work out. Deep down I comprehend that things are cyclical and that all struggles will work out whether we have the ability to immediately foresee the outcome or have no preconception of what is to come. Because we are humans, we have the amazing power of survival to adapt to most of the situations life (or education administrations) hands us.
Right now I must be adapting. Oh yeah, here's an amazing playlist that genius made me. It's the most perfect one it's ever done on its own!
Daylight: Matt & Kim
Your English is Good - Tokyo Police Club
One Month Off - Bloc Party
The Rake's Song - Decemberists
The Kids Don't Stand a Chance - Vampire Weekend
You Don't Know Me - Ben Folds & Regina Spektor
Lucid Dreams - Franz Ferdinand
Acid Tongue - Jenny Lewis
Why Do You Let Me Stay Here? - She & Him
Consolers of the Loneley - The Raconteurs
Lost Coastlines - Okkervil River
Grapevine Fires - Death Cab for Cutie
Cape Canaveral - Conor Oberst
You Got Yr. Cherry Bomb - Spoon
After Hours - We Are Scientists
Look at Me (When I Rock Whichoo) - The Black Kids
Hurt You - The Sounds
Click, Click, Click, Click - Bishop Allen
Signs - Bloc Party
In a Cave - Tokyo Police Club
Campus - Vampire Weekend
Ulysses - Franz Ferdinand
Polar Opposites - Modest Mouse
Hiroshima - Ben Folds
Wolf Like Me - TV on the Radio