Teenage Depression
I can't tell what my emotions are right now.
The show tonite almost killed me. I sobbed and couldn't even sing at points.
I hugged Steve afterwards and really didn't want to let go. I don't like the idea o him dying.
And shit, I hardly KNOW Steve. I mean, I've known him or 3 years, but this is the first time I've actually known he knew my name.
Anyway, the other part of the odd emotions part is that I can't tell if I'm happy or depressed.
I really want these people to be my friends. I mean, I want them to go back to school, and when they come home, maybe actually want to hang out with me. That's the point of friendship I want to have with them. I want "friends" who actually like, and sometimes even want, me around.
I'm happy at the prospect that I could actually make new friends.
But I'm depressed because I know it's never going to happen.
I went out with them tonite, and I could tell they we're thinking, why in the hell did we say she could come? (I asked by the way)
I dunno. I really don't know anymore.
I'm really about to ask, Can I be your friend?
~Sarah~
The show tonite almost killed me. I sobbed and couldn't even sing at points.
I hugged Steve afterwards and really didn't want to let go. I don't like the idea o him dying.
And shit, I hardly KNOW Steve. I mean, I've known him or 3 years, but this is the first time I've actually known he knew my name.
Anyway, the other part of the odd emotions part is that I can't tell if I'm happy or depressed.
I really want these people to be my friends. I mean, I want them to go back to school, and when they come home, maybe actually want to hang out with me. That's the point of friendship I want to have with them. I want "friends" who actually like, and sometimes even want, me around.
I'm happy at the prospect that I could actually make new friends.
But I'm depressed because I know it's never going to happen.
I went out with them tonite, and I could tell they we're thinking, why in the hell did we say she could come? (I asked by the way)
I dunno. I really don't know anymore.
I'm really about to ask, Can I be your friend?
~Sarah~