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Our attempt to quick smoking failed yet again, Eric lasted three days, I had one above him, and Josh went almost a week. I often think, what exactly the point is to quit, if that doesn't kill me it will only be something else that does, and the desire to prolong my life is not as strong as I guess it should be. Or maybe it is that I don't want to spend the rest of my life fending for a cigarette, because no matter what anyone else tells you the carvings never entirely go away, once an addict, always an addict. You just have to hate it enough to want to quit and stay successful in your goal. Not only that, but the people who have successfully quit did so with the help of some kind of aid, something we unfortunately cannot afford. I have yet to meet a person who has successfully quit cold turkey, or quit without replacing it with something else.