day 5/breakup.
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
jamaica! had the opportunity to go in may of '10 with the family i was nannying for, and it was such a beautiful place. a very lonely trip for me, but i loved it just the same.
also, i'm single again. last weekend i was supposed to go out for a friend's birthday and i told jason about it, but when the time came to actually go i demotivated and decided to stay in. i texted jason and told him as much, and his response was "are you sure you're not just trying to gently blow me off?" to which i said "yes i'm sure but you can feel free to check all the bars in winston, i won't be there but it would give you something to do." such an asshole. i had given him NO reason to not trust me, so his comment was totally out of line and made me very angry. we didn't have any contact for the rest of the weekend, and then he missed our class on monday so i texted him to make sure he was alive, and he was. i asked him if we could meet up to talk, he asked what about, i said us... and i got no response. more of the same for the rest of the week until after class on friday, when we decided to break up as we were walking to our cars.
i asked him if it bothered him to have such little contact all week, and he said no, and i told him i felt the same. he said that we got into the relationship too soon, i agreed, and added that while our age difference didn't have a large impact, it still had some affect and that it would probably be best if we ended things. he agreed, and i said "so i guess this is us parting as friends?" and he said yes. we hugged and that was that. went better than i imagined it would, but i still cried as i walked back to my car. it's tough closing a chapter in your life, no matter how short, especially one so intimate. i will miss him, and our closeness, but i hope that we will make better friends than lovers.
jamaica! had the opportunity to go in may of '10 with the family i was nannying for, and it was such a beautiful place. a very lonely trip for me, but i loved it just the same.
also, i'm single again. last weekend i was supposed to go out for a friend's birthday and i told jason about it, but when the time came to actually go i demotivated and decided to stay in. i texted jason and told him as much, and his response was "are you sure you're not just trying to gently blow me off?" to which i said "yes i'm sure but you can feel free to check all the bars in winston, i won't be there but it would give you something to do." such an asshole. i had given him NO reason to not trust me, so his comment was totally out of line and made me very angry. we didn't have any contact for the rest of the weekend, and then he missed our class on monday so i texted him to make sure he was alive, and he was. i asked him if we could meet up to talk, he asked what about, i said us... and i got no response. more of the same for the rest of the week until after class on friday, when we decided to break up as we were walking to our cars.
i asked him if it bothered him to have such little contact all week, and he said no, and i told him i felt the same. he said that we got into the relationship too soon, i agreed, and added that while our age difference didn't have a large impact, it still had some affect and that it would probably be best if we ended things. he agreed, and i said "so i guess this is us parting as friends?" and he said yes. we hugged and that was that. went better than i imagined it would, but i still cried as i walked back to my car. it's tough closing a chapter in your life, no matter how short, especially one so intimate. i will miss him, and our closeness, but i hope that we will make better friends than lovers.