how gay is everything now!!
well lately things have been really gay! and i HATE it!!! like ah,
i HATE skool so much right now! like all my classes are gay, and i got kicked out of my english class the other day cas i told a kid to fuck off,because no one else would and he was pissing off the whole class so i finally did something about it, and i got kicked out,so now i'm prolly going to be switching classes soon, geeeyyy. . . but oh well . . my moms not mad about it, which is good,cas i thought she would be after she found out i told a kid to fuck off. . .
but in other news
me and devon seems to be getting further apart, i mean sometime i think were starting to get really close again, but then we end up fighting or agruing about something stupid,so then i feel like i'm not close to him anymore, and the other day devon told me thats hes not happy anymore and when i asked him why he said cas of us, so that made me feel pretty dang low, . . .well for the past few days i have been trying my hardest to be really happy and smilely and so far it looks like i'm doing good at it,cas people have been telling me i have been smiling alot lately and thats good,cas i don't want to be sad cas of devon anymore, but the thing that gets me down alot, is seeing him talking to other people with a huge smile on his face, but then when he talks to me, he stops smiling or go all mean or something, like when i see him and genevieve talk there always laughing and stuff, not like thats a bad thing but still, i can never make him smile or laugh anymore, i don't know if anyone knows what that feels like but i feel sad whenever i see that, i just wish it was me making devon happy. . . i use to make him happy, but now, its all blowing up in my face. . . i'm soo tired of always being called emo, even though i'm always happy even if i don't show it alot, and if i'm not happy i will tell you, but iunno what i'm getting at here, so i'm just going to go bye. . .
i HATE skool so much right now! like all my classes are gay, and i got kicked out of my english class the other day cas i told a kid to fuck off,because no one else would and he was pissing off the whole class so i finally did something about it, and i got kicked out,so now i'm prolly going to be switching classes soon, geeeyyy. . . but oh well . . my moms not mad about it, which is good,cas i thought she would be after she found out i told a kid to fuck off. . .
but in other news
me and devon seems to be getting further apart, i mean sometime i think were starting to get really close again, but then we end up fighting or agruing about something stupid,so then i feel like i'm not close to him anymore, and the other day devon told me thats hes not happy anymore and when i asked him why he said cas of us, so that made me feel pretty dang low, . . .well for the past few days i have been trying my hardest to be really happy and smilely and so far it looks like i'm doing good at it,cas people have been telling me i have been smiling alot lately and thats good,cas i don't want to be sad cas of devon anymore, but the thing that gets me down alot, is seeing him talking to other people with a huge smile on his face, but then when he talks to me, he stops smiling or go all mean or something, like when i see him and genevieve talk there always laughing and stuff, not like thats a bad thing but still, i can never make him smile or laugh anymore, i don't know if anyone knows what that feels like but i feel sad whenever i see that, i just wish it was me making devon happy. . . i use to make him happy, but now, its all blowing up in my face. . . i'm soo tired of always being called emo, even though i'm always happy even if i don't show it alot, and if i'm not happy i will tell you, but iunno what i'm getting at here, so i'm just going to go bye. . .