winter is lurking
Dear Friend,
The cold air is a crisp reminder of another year gone by. So fast. This one was the fastest of my life. I went to the beach on Sunday, maybe for the last time this year (as an actual beach day...). That is a dreadful thought. I'm freezing right now, and its only the beginning. There's nothing better than being in direct sunlight, feeling the heat sitting on-top of your body. I can feel it wrap around me, consume me. The cold just makes me stiff and shivering. Searching for a way to find warmth. Everybody has it backwards...
I find myself saying that about a lot of things. I've been considering where my life is going (another habitual thought) and may have new paths on the horizons. I'm ready to be successful already, and done struggling. Life will be so good one day. And if I'm lucky, no fuck that, when I decide, it will be. I hope I'm not suffering from grass is greener syndrome, but what else can you do but hope for the sun to shine again?
I'm really not ready for the winter.
Everyone's hibernative depression seems to be setting in. I'm not sure if there is a real medical term for the foul mood everyone passes around during the holiday months, but I'm not the only one who suffers from the winter. Everybody I know is changing, inverting their thoughts. I feel like its the natural way of preparing for not leaving the house. I think I might be stretching it... Everyone thinks I'm crazy for loving the heat and hating the cold, but honestly.... they're the ones who are batty. I'm normal, and you, you are insane. You, friend.
I wouldn't have it any other way. I wish I could see my mom when I wanted to. I've been genuinely wanting to be loved by family lately.
Love always,
Tricia
The cold air is a crisp reminder of another year gone by. So fast. This one was the fastest of my life. I went to the beach on Sunday, maybe for the last time this year (as an actual beach day...). That is a dreadful thought. I'm freezing right now, and its only the beginning. There's nothing better than being in direct sunlight, feeling the heat sitting on-top of your body. I can feel it wrap around me, consume me. The cold just makes me stiff and shivering. Searching for a way to find warmth. Everybody has it backwards...
I find myself saying that about a lot of things. I've been considering where my life is going (another habitual thought) and may have new paths on the horizons. I'm ready to be successful already, and done struggling. Life will be so good one day. And if I'm lucky, no fuck that, when I decide, it will be. I hope I'm not suffering from grass is greener syndrome, but what else can you do but hope for the sun to shine again?
I'm really not ready for the winter.
Everyone's hibernative depression seems to be setting in. I'm not sure if there is a real medical term for the foul mood everyone passes around during the holiday months, but I'm not the only one who suffers from the winter. Everybody I know is changing, inverting their thoughts. I feel like its the natural way of preparing for not leaving the house. I think I might be stretching it... Everyone thinks I'm crazy for loving the heat and hating the cold, but honestly.... they're the ones who are batty. I'm normal, and you, you are insane. You, friend.
I wouldn't have it any other way. I wish I could see my mom when I wanted to. I've been genuinely wanting to be loved by family lately.
Love always,
Tricia