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I love updating at like ungodly hours in the morning.. It's in these hours that most people are asleep and having their slates wiped clean. Every morning is a chance to do something different or take up an different view... I think that's why I like updating late in the night. It allows me to examine the day and take it all in and express it and forget about it.
Anyway my little sister had her party. T'was no fun on my part.. I had to setup it up and clean it up once it was finished.. The only ray of sunshine in the whole affair was that two of my friends came over and hung out..
My Birthday is on Tuesday... But I don't really care.. I'm turning 18 and I feel every birthday that I count I get one step closer to death, so what's the point in celebrating... I dunno I guess I'm weird in this perspective...
Any woo.. I passed my remedial remedial course in math and I'm now going to take the remedial course for math this week. Hopefully I won't have to spend a semester just catching up... The only thing that sucks about this course is that it starts at 9am every morning.. I don't know how I'm going to pull off doing math that early in the morning.. I'm lucky if I can guide myself down my three flights of stairs in the morning...
I'm a little nervous about starting college.. I haven't been in an actual school in six years. I'm nervous that I won't be up to snuff, and to make matters worse everyone thinks I'm some genius or something... I got lucky on the SATs, I have no clue how I did that good... I don't have an impressive vocabulary but for some reason the tests that I take don't point that out... And also I have no life goals other then to just eek out an existence.. I don't care about having a big house or fancy cars or anything... And I have no clue what job I want to be stuck in for the rest of my life... It's frightening sometimes..
Anyway my little sister had her party. T'was no fun on my part.. I had to setup it up and clean it up once it was finished.. The only ray of sunshine in the whole affair was that two of my friends came over and hung out..
My Birthday is on Tuesday... But I don't really care.. I'm turning 18 and I feel every birthday that I count I get one step closer to death, so what's the point in celebrating... I dunno I guess I'm weird in this perspective...
Any woo.. I passed my remedial remedial course in math and I'm now going to take the remedial course for math this week. Hopefully I won't have to spend a semester just catching up... The only thing that sucks about this course is that it starts at 9am every morning.. I don't know how I'm going to pull off doing math that early in the morning.. I'm lucky if I can guide myself down my three flights of stairs in the morning...
I'm a little nervous about starting college.. I haven't been in an actual school in six years. I'm nervous that I won't be up to snuff, and to make matters worse everyone thinks I'm some genius or something... I got lucky on the SATs, I have no clue how I did that good... I don't have an impressive vocabulary but for some reason the tests that I take don't point that out... And also I have no life goals other then to just eek out an existence.. I don't care about having a big house or fancy cars or anything... And I have no clue what job I want to be stuck in for the rest of my life... It's frightening sometimes..