When the sky is falling down It burned your dreams into the ground ...
I know I really don’t use this platform anymore but I feel that I need to get a few things off of my chest and I really don’t know where else to do so.
First of all, I am totally fed up with so many things in my life. I finally have a decent job and was told that I would be taking over for the person who is retiring (which scared me but I have come to terms with it and have been working hard to learn and perfect more and more of her duties). I have now come to find out that they are going to hire someone from totally outside the company to be my superior. Plus, I wasn’t even told by anyone in my department, I overheard some of the girls in the call center talking about it.
Way to inspire loyalty and commitment! Plus, they have doubled my work load without a penny more in income to compensate for all of the shit I am going through and I’m sure I’m going to have to at least partially train my new boss. Yay! FML!
While this situation is harrowing enough, the thing that’s really eating at me is our finances.
I’m very glad that beldar has a job. We both wish it was full time but part time is OK for now and he’s been promised full time hours soon (they were to start in January but as you will see, we’re not holding our breath).
So far, he has had two different paycheck’s bounce. This has caused much hardship and financial juggling between the two of us. But what’s really driving me crazy is that he is not being paid at all now. He is currently owed 1½ months’ worth of back pay and I honestly do not have enough money coming in to cover our basic bills let alone pay for gas or food. Not to mention my meds that I need to keep me sane and seizure-free.
We have been quite patient but I just don’t know what we can do. We both agree that is work is vitally important and we don’t want him to leave it if possible but we just can’t afford for him to be working his ass of as a volunteer. He’s going to try looking for another part time job (or maybe even a full time one) but things are so hectic I just don’t know what to do.
Note that I am not writing this as a plea for financial help or anything, I just want to be able to get these feelings out of my system. I’m honestly tired of sitting at work and smiling on the outside while I am struggling inside to keep it together and not break down in front of everyone.
If you have made it this far, thanks for that. I do feel like I may be using this platform more in the future. If only to help me remember the day to day things that I am constantly forgetting.
TTFN!
First of all, I am totally fed up with so many things in my life. I finally have a decent job and was told that I would be taking over for the person who is retiring (which scared me but I have come to terms with it and have been working hard to learn and perfect more and more of her duties). I have now come to find out that they are going to hire someone from totally outside the company to be my superior. Plus, I wasn’t even told by anyone in my department, I overheard some of the girls in the call center talking about it.
Way to inspire loyalty and commitment! Plus, they have doubled my work load without a penny more in income to compensate for all of the shit I am going through and I’m sure I’m going to have to at least partially train my new boss. Yay! FML!
While this situation is harrowing enough, the thing that’s really eating at me is our finances.
I’m very glad that beldar has a job. We both wish it was full time but part time is OK for now and he’s been promised full time hours soon (they were to start in January but as you will see, we’re not holding our breath).
So far, he has had two different paycheck’s bounce. This has caused much hardship and financial juggling between the two of us. But what’s really driving me crazy is that he is not being paid at all now. He is currently owed 1½ months’ worth of back pay and I honestly do not have enough money coming in to cover our basic bills let alone pay for gas or food. Not to mention my meds that I need to keep me sane and seizure-free.
We have been quite patient but I just don’t know what we can do. We both agree that is work is vitally important and we don’t want him to leave it if possible but we just can’t afford for him to be working his ass of as a volunteer. He’s going to try looking for another part time job (or maybe even a full time one) but things are so hectic I just don’t know what to do.
Note that I am not writing this as a plea for financial help or anything, I just want to be able to get these feelings out of my system. I’m honestly tired of sitting at work and smiling on the outside while I am struggling inside to keep it together and not break down in front of everyone.
If you have made it this far, thanks for that. I do feel like I may be using this platform more in the future. If only to help me remember the day to day things that I am constantly forgetting.
TTFN!