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First of all - R.I.P Heath Ledger. :(
WHOA
where the fuck did all of this stress come from???
Like, it just happened today. Like a "holy fuck" kind of moment.
I dunno. Maybe it's because I'm going to be hanging out with Alex at her house/general house area this weekend. She roped me into being in her band and to sing Hedwig songs in front of people. That's a little beyond my comfort zone, generally. Not only that, but I'll probably be staying at her house, and she doesn't get along with her family very well and it's awkward being there when they're fighting. To top it all off, I'll have to see Joe. And that'll be amazingly awkward. And I shouldn't not want to hang out with him, but... I don't, really. Like, even before he asked me out, I just got so stressed out when I was around him. Even from meeting him the first time. Like I can't relax. And it doesn't help that he and Alex like to drag me along until 2 or 3 in the morning, which I dislike in general.
But I don't want to be a jerk. I don't want to appear like I don't want to hang out with Joe just because he asked me out. And I don't want to hurt Alex's feelings.
And I just KNOW that doing all of this, I won't get any homework done. Which will suck hardcore because I know I'll have a ton of it.
But yeah. D:
And fuck it, I still have my 6 hour drawing that's due Thursday and I've only done an hour's worth of work on it. Fuuuuuck.
Blahhhhhh, I just want to curl up, draw some Clopin and listen to music.
:C
WHOA
where the fuck did all of this stress come from???
Like, it just happened today. Like a "holy fuck" kind of moment.
I dunno. Maybe it's because I'm going to be hanging out with Alex at her house/general house area this weekend. She roped me into being in her band and to sing Hedwig songs in front of people. That's a little beyond my comfort zone, generally. Not only that, but I'll probably be staying at her house, and she doesn't get along with her family very well and it's awkward being there when they're fighting. To top it all off, I'll have to see Joe. And that'll be amazingly awkward. And I shouldn't not want to hang out with him, but... I don't, really. Like, even before he asked me out, I just got so stressed out when I was around him. Even from meeting him the first time. Like I can't relax. And it doesn't help that he and Alex like to drag me along until 2 or 3 in the morning, which I dislike in general.
But I don't want to be a jerk. I don't want to appear like I don't want to hang out with Joe just because he asked me out. And I don't want to hurt Alex's feelings.
And I just KNOW that doing all of this, I won't get any homework done. Which will suck hardcore because I know I'll have a ton of it.
But yeah. D:
And fuck it, I still have my 6 hour drawing that's due Thursday and I've only done an hour's worth of work on it. Fuuuuuck.
Blahhhhhh, I just want to curl up, draw some Clopin and listen to music.
:C