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apparently torrent is the WORST FUCKING INVENTION FUCKING EVER! been downloading something for an hour and am 0.000000001% done. well actually i'm lying. it's 5.9% done. whooh boy. i think i might faint. i don't think it's worth my time staying up with it waiting for the fucking download, but i have shit else to do and sleeping is stupid when you can do it all day. and all i'm doing tomorrow is buying a mattress for davey and colleen's room. i can't wait to finally put the bed in there. their room will be like the bedroom i always wanted when i was a kid. so far for their room i have: a big rag rug, a barbie party record, a type-writers-in-cases-turned-bed-side-tables, several wizard of oz prints framed in black frames, big tan curtains complete with several little tasslely things, annnnnnnd an antique white brass bed! bestest room ever. lol. oh my god! i don't know why i didn't think of it before, but i am seriously putting in a canopy. ugh. fuck colleen and davey. they can have my room. :D yup great plan.
god damn. i forgot how stupid it was to write on this thing. actually i take that back. it wasn't stupid. it's stupid now though. i remember how much i used to write in this and be so excited if anyone ever commented on it. i remember thinking how boring it was to write on paper; how wrong it felt. now the keys under my fingers seem strange. the voice in my head rereading what i write as i write it sounds not like me at all. dunno. like the word 'dunno'. i NEVER use words like that in my journal. the internet doesn't feel like home any more. besides in my journal i can write shit like BONNIE LAUX IS A FAGGOT. not that i often do, but you know the choice is there and uh no ones going to say anything. :D not that if they did something i would give a fuck. and if you're not willing to take shit from people. why even be alive? ugh. this is fucking stupid. good bye livejournal. i've officially out grown whoring myself to your blogging stupidity... not that it's not cool for some people, but it's like livejournal and i were seeing each other and it's not me it's you. :O
ps: molly and or katy if you read this. i miss you guys and i'm so sorry i've been such a flake the last couple of years! i would love to talk to you again or email or whatever. :( lots of hugs and i'm sorrys, annie
god damn. i forgot how stupid it was to write on this thing. actually i take that back. it wasn't stupid. it's stupid now though. i remember how much i used to write in this and be so excited if anyone ever commented on it. i remember thinking how boring it was to write on paper; how wrong it felt. now the keys under my fingers seem strange. the voice in my head rereading what i write as i write it sounds not like me at all. dunno. like the word 'dunno'. i NEVER use words like that in my journal. the internet doesn't feel like home any more. besides in my journal i can write shit like BONNIE LAUX IS A FAGGOT. not that i often do, but you know the choice is there and uh no ones going to say anything. :D not that if they did something i would give a fuck. and if you're not willing to take shit from people. why even be alive? ugh. this is fucking stupid. good bye livejournal. i've officially out grown whoring myself to your blogging stupidity... not that it's not cool for some people, but it's like livejournal and i were seeing each other and it's not me it's you. :O
ps: molly and or katy if you read this. i miss you guys and i'm so sorry i've been such a flake the last couple of years! i would love to talk to you again or email or whatever. :( lots of hugs and i'm sorrys, annie