ohhh Texicans.........
I've stopped updating. I just don't feel the need to anymore. Its not b/c i don't have things to say b/c i do, i always do, i always over analyze and think to much. I have proven to myself a theory that i thought might be true. Very few read my thoughts on this internet journal, but you did. We didn't talk for months, and did you notice that during those months is when i updated almost daily? It was subconciously for you. I never let go completly like i thought i had. Remeber us? we have so much history dating all the way back to my lame ass texican joke. that was over 3 years ago. It was over 3 years ago that you first said I love you, while i stood on a hotel balcony in Ft.Lauderdale staring at the palm trees that were this big - you couldn't see it, but it was big ;) And now we've so quickly gotten back to being us in a matter of weeks. There is a part of me that wants to run away b/c i'm leaving for school soon and i know its going to be hard, but the majority just misses you when i'm not with you and says fuck logic. I'm scared to fall in love with you again, It hurt to much to lose it the first time, and this timing just sucks. But i can't help it. I am. I am falling. fast. God help me. I love you soo much.