Something blue, something new....wait...that's wrong
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck...
still not out of my system. I want to go outside and scream, but I'm containing myself at the moment...but only for the moment. Situation to bring you up to date as to my stress and nerves that have my stomach in a knot and want to scream till I'm out of air.
So last week oh about Wednesday afternoon I got an email...I got the second interview, here's your plane ticket, the agenda, what to bring, etc...fucking sweet man, alright, I'm relived that I I actually got it. My angst and acting emo over that is over, its confirmed and that .1% that I wouldn't the second interview is gone..it's a 100% now I got it bitches...
so they emailed this to my gmail and tech emails address. Then Thursday I checked my tech one...which I was only checking daily to see if I got the second interview for sure sure...so Friday and Saturday I don't look it at my tech one...why should I? I'm assuming that they're going to be sending my stuff to the gmail address...omg wrong!!! Last night at about 4 am I checked my tech one...you know for shits and giggles..o and I have two emails from the Schlum guys.
I have a group presentation to do the first night that we are there!!!
fuck fuck.....you get the idea... I was so sick at seeing this. (had to take a break from posting this. it's making my blood pressure rise)
Alright so I'm okay with doing a presentation really I'm...wish I could've seen this on Friday. Then I could have stressed but procrastinated all weekend, now I feel like I can't procrastinate...which I mean it's like a process for me...stress, act like I'm settling down to deal with...procrastinate...then suddenly realize oh fuck it's due in a two days...then buckle down and get my shit done...
This is a group project, and they haven't tried to contact me...do they know...I'm sure they do. I'm under the assumption that people check their emails daily, if not more. So now I'm trying to email them, and be like whats up...you two might know each other because it says you both went to the same school.
I really don't want to be the one to step up to the plate and put this shit together...I mean I will, I've done it before, and it keeps my mind at ease for doing it. But I'm dealing with people that I don't know at all...like not their faces, their attitudes, nothing. I got a name, email and phone number. If it was people I knew or went to school with, I would've shot off an email already. With people I don't know, and for an interview, can I really be as aggressive as I usually am.
update;;; just talked to one of the girls, and now I need to call the other!!! kill me
I'm sick to my stomach with this stuff...I wish we did presentations then had dinner and not the other way around...haha
still not out of my system. I want to go outside and scream, but I'm containing myself at the moment...but only for the moment. Situation to bring you up to date as to my stress and nerves that have my stomach in a knot and want to scream till I'm out of air.
So last week oh about Wednesday afternoon I got an email...I got the second interview, here's your plane ticket, the agenda, what to bring, etc...fucking sweet man, alright, I'm relived that I I actually got it. My angst and acting emo over that is over, its confirmed and that .1% that I wouldn't the second interview is gone..it's a 100% now I got it bitches...
so they emailed this to my gmail and tech emails address. Then Thursday I checked my tech one...which I was only checking daily to see if I got the second interview for sure sure...so Friday and Saturday I don't look it at my tech one...why should I? I'm assuming that they're going to be sending my stuff to the gmail address...omg wrong!!! Last night at about 4 am I checked my tech one...you know for shits and giggles..o and I have two emails from the Schlum guys.
I have a group presentation to do the first night that we are there!!!
fuck fuck.....you get the idea... I was so sick at seeing this. (had to take a break from posting this. it's making my blood pressure rise)
Alright so I'm okay with doing a presentation really I'm...wish I could've seen this on Friday. Then I could have stressed but procrastinated all weekend, now I feel like I can't procrastinate...which I mean it's like a process for me...stress, act like I'm settling down to deal with...procrastinate...then suddenly realize oh fuck it's due in a two days...then buckle down and get my shit done...
This is a group project, and they haven't tried to contact me...do they know...I'm sure they do. I'm under the assumption that people check their emails daily, if not more. So now I'm trying to email them, and be like whats up...you two might know each other because it says you both went to the same school.
I really don't want to be the one to step up to the plate and put this shit together...I mean I will, I've done it before, and it keeps my mind at ease for doing it. But I'm dealing with people that I don't know at all...like not their faces, their attitudes, nothing. I got a name, email and phone number. If it was people I knew or went to school with, I would've shot off an email already. With people I don't know, and for an interview, can I really be as aggressive as I usually am.
update;;; just talked to one of the girls, and now I need to call the other!!! kill me
I'm sick to my stomach with this stuff...I wish we did presentations then had dinner and not the other way around...haha