Wise
Sometimes in your life I think you just smash through a previous understanding of life, and see everything in a new, probably more realistic and rational perspective. You move further away from the innocence, stability and black and whiteness of childhood, and into the complex, untameable and sometimes sad vision of life.
It seems no matter how hard you try, people will go - they'll leave, they'll have disagreements, they'll have mental breakdowns, or they'll just drift away. It's sad, because no matter what you do, you can't force them to stay.
It's not like a camp. WHY CAN'T LIFE BE A GIANT CAMP?! A camp where everyone will be there everyday. You'll always know where to find them, and the sad sometimes angry leaving scenes never happen. Or to a more painful extente, school, where everyone arrived everyday. They were always there to be found if you looked.
The saddest thought might be that in separation time, relationships can go backwards.
But the happiest thought, is that maybe they don't go backwards. Maybe they stay neutral, and in the space left behind by old friends, new friends can fill, thus increasing the total value of your relationships.
What the hell am I rambling about?
Oh, some random friends of mine from Berowra have been having this huge fight recently over stupid things, but there'll probably end up being one of those fragmentation things, where people stop being friends and stuff.
I hate things like that, cause I don't want to join either side, and it makes me feel alienated.
*nods*
But in other news
UNI WAS REALLY GOOD TODAY.
They read my script and they loved it Wahoooo-oooooo
They laughed at all the jokes. Yay!
You can find it on my myspace if you first friend me and then look in my blogs. Yay!
Okay sleep time, and Ness's Bday party tomorrow.
-The_cannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnabil
It seems no matter how hard you try, people will go - they'll leave, they'll have disagreements, they'll have mental breakdowns, or they'll just drift away. It's sad, because no matter what you do, you can't force them to stay.
It's not like a camp. WHY CAN'T LIFE BE A GIANT CAMP?! A camp where everyone will be there everyday. You'll always know where to find them, and the sad sometimes angry leaving scenes never happen. Or to a more painful extente, school, where everyone arrived everyday. They were always there to be found if you looked.
The saddest thought might be that in separation time, relationships can go backwards.
But the happiest thought, is that maybe they don't go backwards. Maybe they stay neutral, and in the space left behind by old friends, new friends can fill, thus increasing the total value of your relationships.
What the hell am I rambling about?
Oh, some random friends of mine from Berowra have been having this huge fight recently over stupid things, but there'll probably end up being one of those fragmentation things, where people stop being friends and stuff.
I hate things like that, cause I don't want to join either side, and it makes me feel alienated.
*nods*
But in other news
UNI WAS REALLY GOOD TODAY.
They read my script and they loved it Wahoooo-oooooo
They laughed at all the jokes. Yay!
You can find it on my myspace if you first friend me and then look in my blogs. Yay!
Okay sleep time, and Ness's Bday party tomorrow.
-The_cannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnabil