Ugh
Well, I'm feeling mildly depressed. It seems to happen every once in a while...probably because I try to distract myself from things so much that at some point it decides to hit me all at once. I guess this is that time. Thanksgiving went alright, had a pretty decent and restful time for the most part, but I think what prompted all of these feelings is the girl I like that I mentioned before. We've been e-mailing back and forth as well as still talking online all the time. It's quite obvious that she likes me and would certainly be willing to go out with me if it weren't for the fact that it's online. At least that's what I've gathered. But she also has a guy in real life that she has had a crush on for a couple years and wants to finally tell him. She's mentioned some of his character, such as that he dated one of her friends and cheated on her, and that he can be a jerk, but apparently he's nice and funny as well. She's still trying to think things over, but has indicated that she wants to risk letting him know she likes him even if she ends up getting hurt. I know there's really nothing I can do, and I want he to be happy, but I guess the choosing him over me has got me a little down. But at the same time, she carries on talking with me as though she weren't planning on anything with him. Since I told her I like her we've been doing these coupley type roleplays (nothing beyond cudding, kissing and such, taking walks in the park, just hanging out, etc. for those who might have their mind in the gutter) and even tonight she's persisted in this, but for me it just seems a little weird. But, since I like her, I go with it. I'm not sure how things will end up, but since she's asked me for all this advice to determine whether to let him know she like him or not, I've just felt off. I've tried to be supportive, but it's not easy.
For those that know me well enough, I don't really crush on girls easily, so it makes it all the more difficult since at the moment I can't just move on if she truly does choose him over me. Maybe sleep will make me feel better, but I doubt it.
Though everyone seems to be all over the place and not really paying attention to each other much anymore, I'd still appreciate advice or feedback or something.
For those that know me well enough, I don't really crush on girls easily, so it makes it all the more difficult since at the moment I can't just move on if she truly does choose him over me. Maybe sleep will make me feel better, but I doubt it.
Though everyone seems to be all over the place and not really paying attention to each other much anymore, I'd still appreciate advice or feedback or something.