Return
I'm feeling sick right now. I don't want to go back to school. I have no reason to look forward to it anymore. I want to leave GCS. There are people I would miss, but I know when I step in the door, there are things that will cut me to the bone. I need to find more friends, preferably some close to home. Some that I could call my best friends. I've been missing that. Some of the people I care about the most have new friends, or have gone out of state, or are too far into drugs, or too busy. Tell me to cheer up all you want, I know some of you will tell me stop complaining and be positive. I need someone to know what I'm feeling and tell me its allright and let it bleed out of my system. Right now, I'm not sad, not upset, just making a statement of realization. I'm taking small steps toward my Resolutions. Just let me exist, its all I ask. I'll be more than happy to talk to anyone, just don't get on me about how my feelings react. I can't thank all of you enough for being there, I know I owe you. I'm trying to be better. I just don't know how to until I find that missing part of my soul. I'm going to go get some sleep.