Oct 09, 2009 00:44
that I wonder what it's all for. The training, the struggle, the study, the exercise. Why do I have this overriding need to be best I possibly can? What do I have to prove? It's 12:45 and I'm still working out, I started at 7:45 or so. I know I'm distracted. But still....
Other than looking like a condom full of walnuts as a certain person is fond of saying, what does it get me. A fragile sense of worth because I have a body that I can be proud of? Or does the dedication to this life have other perks yet to be revealed.....
Hmmm something to think on over the next set of Flies.