Beginning
It's finally happened.
I believe there comes a time in every person's life where one leaves home. Sometimes he comes back. Sometimes he doesn't. Regardless, those who do not leave will never realize their potential. Living under the auspice of parents, in a too familiar place, with someone else's rules will prevent the person from becoming a self.
Today is the last day that this house in Monroe will be my home. Due to my actions, and due to who my parents are, I no longer have a place in their embrace. This day had to come. My only regret is that I thought it would be worth it to lie to them.
Today I cried for the first time in 2 years. I don't plan on making it a habit, because men don't cry. They take all the shit they have to deal with and just handle it. Crying doesn't help. Figuring things out does. But today I couldn't help it. When I said goodbye to my father we both broke down a little. Their was just too much emotion. For that brief moment when I saw the tears roll down his cheek, I wished I could take it all back. I wished that I could go back to that night and do things differently, so that I could continue to grow under their umbrella. But I quickly shut that down. It's time for me to be my own man. If I had second thoughts now, I would only hinder myself.
This is my last entry as The Boy Wonder. As of today, that name is for someone younger, living in an easier time.
I have no idea if I will ever be able to heal the relationship with my parents I destroyed. What I do know is that I can't think about that now. For now I have to do what I have to do.
I am going to accomplish great things. I am going to build a new home. MY home. I'll start over in Albany, but who knows where I'll end up. Maybe California, or Israel, or even Canada. I know my parents will always be there when it really comes down to it, but I will not depend on them any longer. I will create an identity separate from the one my parents helped foster.
Today I leave for good.
Today, I am free.
-Sam Pine
I believe there comes a time in every person's life where one leaves home. Sometimes he comes back. Sometimes he doesn't. Regardless, those who do not leave will never realize their potential. Living under the auspice of parents, in a too familiar place, with someone else's rules will prevent the person from becoming a self.
Today is the last day that this house in Monroe will be my home. Due to my actions, and due to who my parents are, I no longer have a place in their embrace. This day had to come. My only regret is that I thought it would be worth it to lie to them.
Today I cried for the first time in 2 years. I don't plan on making it a habit, because men don't cry. They take all the shit they have to deal with and just handle it. Crying doesn't help. Figuring things out does. But today I couldn't help it. When I said goodbye to my father we both broke down a little. Their was just too much emotion. For that brief moment when I saw the tears roll down his cheek, I wished I could take it all back. I wished that I could go back to that night and do things differently, so that I could continue to grow under their umbrella. But I quickly shut that down. It's time for me to be my own man. If I had second thoughts now, I would only hinder myself.
This is my last entry as The Boy Wonder. As of today, that name is for someone younger, living in an easier time.
I have no idea if I will ever be able to heal the relationship with my parents I destroyed. What I do know is that I can't think about that now. For now I have to do what I have to do.
I am going to accomplish great things. I am going to build a new home. MY home. I'll start over in Albany, but who knows where I'll end up. Maybe California, or Israel, or even Canada. I know my parents will always be there when it really comes down to it, but I will not depend on them any longer. I will create an identity separate from the one my parents helped foster.
Today I leave for good.
Today, I am free.
-Sam Pine