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i still feel so very empty sometimes, late at night, when i have nothing to do, and sleep is not yet an option. i wonder if someday that emptiness will be filled.
so six flags today. it was fun, and an experience, but i will never be going back, at least not for a good long time. there were so many things about it that bothered me: the cultural stereotypes perpetuated in their different themed areas, the middle schoolers who are growing up too fast and spending all their money on copious amounts of overpriced souvenirs, the amount of money it costs for admission+parking+food. it just had a slightly shoddy air to it, like a decaying disney world without any magic, and the blatant over-consumerism and assault of crappy music coming from every orifice was overwhelming and depressing. the rides were really fun once i got over my slight bout of malaise, but i kept wishing i was in nature somewhere, away from all the overdevelopment. i need more nature in my life/i want to go backpacking so badly, but ill never have time this summer, which i am so very sad about. i need a good fix of sleeping in a tent, frolicking with plants, cooking food over a fire, and feeling insignificant.
despite things improving significantly over the past week or two, i still am sad about how i chose to spend the summer. i was talking to my mom last night, and she mentioned that after this, i only have two summers left during my college years, and i feel like i should do exciting, adventurous things with them.
so six flags today. it was fun, and an experience, but i will never be going back, at least not for a good long time. there were so many things about it that bothered me: the cultural stereotypes perpetuated in their different themed areas, the middle schoolers who are growing up too fast and spending all their money on copious amounts of overpriced souvenirs, the amount of money it costs for admission+parking+food. it just had a slightly shoddy air to it, like a decaying disney world without any magic, and the blatant over-consumerism and assault of crappy music coming from every orifice was overwhelming and depressing. the rides were really fun once i got over my slight bout of malaise, but i kept wishing i was in nature somewhere, away from all the overdevelopment. i need more nature in my life/i want to go backpacking so badly, but ill never have time this summer, which i am so very sad about. i need a good fix of sleeping in a tent, frolicking with plants, cooking food over a fire, and feeling insignificant.
despite things improving significantly over the past week or two, i still am sad about how i chose to spend the summer. i was talking to my mom last night, and she mentioned that after this, i only have two summers left during my college years, and i feel like i should do exciting, adventurous things with them.