Plan A© before B™
So I've been quiet for a while.
This is not because I have forgotten about my friend's on here, nor because I have fallen into a horrible state of depression due to binging or anything like that.
You may remember I mentioned meeting someone through a friend? Well.... things sort of went well. I decided (thanks to your advice) to reply to the message and we got to talking and then msn and then we decided to meet for a cup of tea a few days later...
We've seen each other a couple of times now, it's really nice... A© is fantastic. Like, super fantastic. He wants the same things as I do... he's not one of those "party party party" people. We obviously have our differences... like he doesn't like rum, for a start. But we have all these similarities... in simplicity. It might not seem like a lot but just the fact that we both want to start a vegie garden says a lot.
I hope things go well... if I ruin this, I will know it is me. Because A© is brilliant, and I know that despite my stupid and irrational fear of trusting/depending on someone/something, I will try because I like having him around. See, the idea of having to make an effort to do something I don't want to do is something that scares me. I don't like being bored... but in the past I don't think I've known someone who was quite what I was looking for... like B or A.
But now I have a chance to see if I just hadn't found the right person yet, or if the problem is worse and something I need to address...