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i am in the worse fucking mood.
if i don't get to bed before 2 am tonite i am going to kill myself.
for over a week i have not seen my bed before 2.. sometimes 4 soemtimes 5.. and that would be ok if i didn't have to get up and go to work.. or you know.. tend to my child.
my birthday is in 4 days and normally i am retarded excited and do nothing but talk about my birthday.
i don't want to do anything.
i don't even care.
my father always takes a fishing trip on my birthday weekend.. hes gone once again this year.
and its my first mothers day.
i am not eating sweets.
i already got my birthday present.
what else would there be to do.
just how much i don't care about my birthday i scheduled a doctors appointment on my birthday.
god i am in a shitty mood.
if i don't get to bed before 2 am tonite i am going to kill myself.
for over a week i have not seen my bed before 2.. sometimes 4 soemtimes 5.. and that would be ok if i didn't have to get up and go to work.. or you know.. tend to my child.
my birthday is in 4 days and normally i am retarded excited and do nothing but talk about my birthday.
i don't want to do anything.
i don't even care.
my father always takes a fishing trip on my birthday weekend.. hes gone once again this year.
and its my first mothers day.
i am not eating sweets.
i already got my birthday present.
what else would there be to do.
just how much i don't care about my birthday i scheduled a doctors appointment on my birthday.
god i am in a shitty mood.