Reaping

[the_blinded_eye]

Under bitter fall of night and soft stop of steps, I am left a reflection of my past. Future is made up of the mistakes we have made, and memories are cornered by our own definitions. Reality is what we make of it. It is our own personal show, and we are the soul director. The only question is, how do you want to be remembered? Will your story

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[cardnial_wolf]

I want to be remembered for my love, my truth, and my wild spirit. To live is the right of us all.. but more and more and more I encounter those that feel that right is only theirs.. and I have been trained so well and so long on pleasing those I am with. I am too agreeable... like Toboe in Wolfs Rain... but we all have limits.. we all snap at some point, and I dont care if my pieces ever fit back together.

[the_blinded_eye]

Ah, but even Toboe learned, and was in several occasions the driving force that kept the other wolves moving. It is possible without sacrificing who you really are.

...I still need to finish that picture, don't I?

~nudges your icon~

[cardnial_wolf]

Aye.. that he did learn. But I feel so far gone from who I was I dont think I could ever come back around to that place again. Just like he will never be the loving guardian pet that he was to Granny. He will always wan that innocent happiness, but now that he has come so far, and so many wounds and trails.. he cannot bring himself to return. None of the wolves in Wolfs Rain can go back from where they started from. My Rakuen, my future is lost, I dare not even try to forge another right now, nor do I want one.. and tho I am in no way willing to hurt myself, I have no idea why I am still standing.

Aye.. it would be nice to finish it.. as I need to finish what I owe you. *nuzzles softly*

[the_blinded_eye]

Would it help ease your mind if I told you I never had a Rakuen? I never had a Paradise to fight or search for, and I still don't...but here I am...I may not know why I do the things I do or am able to do the things I do...but as I told you in a comment on DA...sometimes never going back to who we were is the point of it all.

~nuzzles~

I shall try to do so for you...I am so sorry I never finished it, so far.

[cardnial_wolf]

No.. not really it doesn't ease my mind. I'm sorry it has eluded you and hope that you might still find it some day and that it doesn't escape you as it has for me.

*ear folds, returns the nuzzle weakly*