the lengths that I would go to, the distance in your eyes
Dated June 16, 2011:
Briefly, Eduardo wishes that he were mad. That Mark could yell and get out any frustration, or else turn on that cold, hard-edged disappointment that's always brought childhood memories with it, and Eduardo could sit there and take it and let that be penance for a wrongdoing, a way of compensating for the mistakes he made in the only way possible. Instead, he's left with an unsettling feeling of emptiness, of uncertainty, without a single fucking clue as to what it is that Mark wants from him. Surely it has to be something; Mark's always wanted something, an algorithm or a thousand dollars or an extra two hundred for some kind of server or just the expected deference, never Eduardo himself. Now, that seems vividly to be the case again.
Six days after their fight while Mark could only tell the truth, Eduardo goes to try to make amends. Things get worse before anything else, but they just might wind up better off than they were to start with.
[ HERE | Complete | PG-13]
Briefly, Eduardo wishes that he were mad. That Mark could yell and get out any frustration, or else turn on that cold, hard-edged disappointment that's always brought childhood memories with it, and Eduardo could sit there and take it and let that be penance for a wrongdoing, a way of compensating for the mistakes he made in the only way possible. Instead, he's left with an unsettling feeling of emptiness, of uncertainty, without a single fucking clue as to what it is that Mark wants from him. Surely it has to be something; Mark's always wanted something, an algorithm or a thousand dollars or an extra two hundred for some kind of server or just the expected deference, never Eduardo himself. Now, that seems vividly to be the case again.
Six days after their fight while Mark could only tell the truth, Eduardo goes to try to make amends. Things get worse before anything else, but they just might wind up better off than they were to start with.
[ HERE | Complete | PG-13]